Beta #3

First off im feeling SO MUCH better! Im still bloated but everything is back to normal...it feels good to feel good again!

So onto my drama today. My beta is 2100 @ 20dpo. Doubling time of 56 hours. I was going to be happy with anything over 2000 so i was happy until the nurse said the doctor (who isnt mine btw) thinks thats "borderline"... WTF??

So of course ive been Dr. Googling up a storm...

Once your beta reaches 1200 it can take up to 96 hours to double and im well within the range of 48-72 hours of doubling....PLUS im still off the charts for a singleton or a twin pregnancy according to betabase. 2 or 3 babes might have implanted and im losing one is also a possibility.

They want me to come back on thursday for another beta and an u/s. I thought about it tonight and im am NOT doing the beta. Id rather go by just the u/s. I should have refused the 3rd beta too...UG!

Trying to remain positive.

Turning around?

Im afriad to say it but i *think* im starting to really feel better. My belly is still really bloated, im having heart palpatations, short of breathe but, i dont feel like im dying!

The worst part is the intestinal cramps i get. They are the worst is my belly is empty.

Pregnancy symptoms are not really sure of. The main one is some crampiness here and there and my boobs will hurt for short periods of time. Im not sure if the nausea is OHSS related or pregnancy...oh and i could eat.a. house.!

They want me to go back toesday for another beta - just to torture me i guess but, they also need to check on the OHSS. If the beta rising correctly it should be around 2400 at that time.

happy news!!

299 to 647!!! doubling time of 43 hours...

Symptom wise, its hard to tell since this OHSS is prety much kicking my ass.

I really wish i could be super estatic but im still so scared... damn RPL!

OHSS sucks donkey balls!

Wednesday night i woke up in EXCUCIATING pain. I felt like my intestines were going to explode. I seriously thought i was going to die, it hurt so bad. Pete brought me to the hospital (thank goodness my mom was here cause i dont think i would have been able to wait for anyone to come get him). I was shaking and crying it hurt so much. I took 2 Tyl #3's and bby the time i got to the hospital i felt 50% better.

The Triage OB's dont see much OHSS so they were all sorts of concerned over the fluid in my lungs, my tachypneas (fast breathing) and tachycardia (my HR was 120's)...i tried to explain ive been like this for 3 days but the PAIN is what is concerning. They did a chest x-ray and i had "moderate plural effusions", they did ABG's and all sorts of other bloodwork.

IN the end i stayed the night for observation. Nothing happened for the rest of the night so i came home yesterday morning.

I have to take the Tyl #3's cause the belly pain is so bad. Its all my oragans all smushed, on top of the Progesterone making my intestines being sluggish, im not having a good time. Dr. P came in and said my blood was "turning around" so i should start feeling better in the next day or so.

I sure hope so cause this is awful!

BETA #2 today....eeek!!

Results are in!

Drumroll please....

at 14dpo (or 11dp3dt) my beta is 299!!

299!

RPL has ruin me because im not super excited..yet! I wish i was running around the house screaming but im still very guarded. Ill feel much better on friday once we know if it doubled or not.

299 is fantastic i just need to wrap my head around it.

Oh, i gained another pound and 2 inches around my belly. Im still short of breathe but im managing..nighttime is the worst.

299!!

BTW my beta with jack was 261 at 16 dpo..

This is horrible!

I havent slept in 3 days..i am in so much pain. My belly is 40 inches around!!! 40! I get attacks in my belly and it feel like soemone is ripping my insides out. If i do too much activity i cant breathe for a good 10 minutes. I can only eat about 5 bites before i become short of breathe or get severe stomach cramps...my lungs are burning, the heatburn is awful.

i feel like im dying,this sucks!

This is def in the top 3 worst things ive had to deal with...It was not this bad last night.

They said it can get worse - you have got to be kidding me!

I cant lay down, i cant sit up, i cant roll on my side, if i stand for too long i get dizzy.

I went in today and i gained 1 1/2 pounds in a day and my belly grew a half inch. I have to go back again today to get more blood work and measurements.

I had to take TYl #3's tonight to relax me cause i just cant take it anymore.

BETA tomorrow!...hoping this is all worth it!!

OHSS

This morning i woke up and started doing things around the house i became short of breathe. This weekend everyday i felt more and more uncomfortable so i wasnt surprised.

i called the RE and they had me come right in. My BP was 158/82 my pulse was in the 120's my respirations were 28-32...they did a u/s and there is considerable amount of fluid in my abdomen. The fluid is pushing up on my oragns which is whats making me very uncomfortable.

The RE said this could indicate im pregnant since this is a late OHSS but its not a definite. I havent taken a test cause im too scared to see a negative test and have to struggle to breathe...thatd make for a bad day...

My blood work came back "hemoconcentrated" so its thick since im dehydrated. I need to go back tomorrow for a repeat. I need to try to drink alot of gatorade to get the fluid out. Thats hard since my belly cant hold much with the presuure. Ive been regurgitating ( nice, i know)..everytime i take a sip.

Im just really hoping this is because im pregnant with a healthy bab(ies) ...

8dp3dt

I am so bloated...seriously i look 5 months pregnant. I am so uncomfortable. It started thursday night and just keeps getting worse. It feels like i have a ballon in my stomach. Im burpy but it doesnt really realif much pressure. Im really hoping its mild case of late OHSS since that means this may have worked...but im not getting my hopes up.

My uterus has had quite of bit of activity in it...mostly feels like a dull achiness.

My bbs get some sharp pains in them every so often but nothing to r eally write home about.

im still really dizzy.

4 more days...

getting scared... 6dp3dt

So its still to early to test or to really feel any symtoms but that doesnt mean the lack of feeling much is making me a tad nervous that this didnt work...

What a i am feeling...

still dizzy - idk if this is preogesterone side effect

sore bb's

the cramping/pulling has basically been non exsistent for a couple days..ill feel a little tug but nothing major. Sometimes it feels like ive got deep little period cramps but it only lasts for a few seconds. when i got pregs with Jack i remember being at work and i could barely stand up i had some pretty serious cramps...i couldnt even stand up straight! i keep waiting for that to happen.That was the day before my beta.


vivid dreams - i wont even tell u what ive been dreaming about!

Now all these symtoms would prob go unnoticed if i wasnt a crazy person and noticing every little twinge...im hypersensitive to my body right now.

6 more days...

Prog check

is was 84...i did my PIO injection - well Pete did it - about 2 hours beforehand so that could be why its so high.

Last night i didnt feel much activity in my uterus...this morning i felt some pressure and felt that here and there throughout the day but nothing major. I mostly just felt slightly dizzy all day. My bb's are slightly sore and i get shooting/burning pains in them every now and then...its more burning then anything.

8 more days... im afraid for the 2WW to end b/c it could be the end of my hope...i like how these 2 weeks i can pretend everything is going to be OK...

3dp3dt and Jack :)

Thats code for 6 days since "ovulation" so ive got 9 more days til i know the results.

So the obsessing has begun...

Yesterday 2dp3dt :
Started feeling some good cramping/burning in my uterus. Def something going on in there. But is it just the work of the progesterone? Im very bloated still but i think thats just the prog. I had a slight case of "fire nipples" yesterday which made me excited cause the last time i had that was Jacks pregnancy...but it was also closer to beta day so idk know if the hormones are just playing tricks on me. I also had some dizziness yesterday..not bad but there. Also im exhausted and all i wanna do is lay down....does prog do that?

Last night i woke up with the burning in my uterus.. i think?? thats a good sign but i dont want to get my hopes up. I also have that ligament pulling....but already?

I know the blastocyst hatches on day 5 and starts implanting very soon after...so im hoping all this is real and not just ,y body playing tricks on me.

So Jack :)....

My little love bug. Im watching him play with playdoh right now and he is just the light of my life. That little boy is such a sweetheart. He is obsessed with me. He kisses and hugs me all day long. At bedtime he wants me to lay with him until he falls asleep. He loves for me to tickles his to sleep...def my kid :) At his 3 yr appt...he weight 29 3/4 pounds and 36 1/2 inches. Still in the 25th percentile...my lil peanut :) I wish i could put into words how much lovei feel for this little person.
He's super excited for Christmas...this isthe first year he kinda gets it. Every commercial on TV he gets so excited! So far his list is:

Weeble Treehouse - its a baby toy and i try to tell him that but the commercial is winning him over lol
Stinky Garbage Truck
Lotso Hugging Bear
Duplo
Imaginext Spaceship
Zoobles

We've tried to take him to Santa a few times but he fell asleep. He asks everyday if Santa is coming. Pete bought a blow up Santa and put it outside and Jack loves it!

Transfer

This transfer was by far the most uninformed one ive ever had. With PGD i always got 2+ phone calls from my doc telling me how the embryos are doing, thier stages and what will be transferred.

I go no phone calls this time asides from the IVF lab to tell me 6 were progressing.

Yesterday - the day of the transfer- we woke up, dropped Jack off at my IL's and heading in.

They recently moved my RE's office from a cozy office to a more contemporary building that now has 2 floors. Im still getting use to the place. My ER i was stuck in a small room with the door closed while i slowly slipped into a panic attack (not full blown but shaky and crying)..all my anxiety during the cycle erupts on this day.

So anyways..same thing happened...they put me into a small room told me to take off my pants and wait...and wait. Thanksfully Pete was with me or i would have gone nuts. We had NO IDEA how many they wanted to transfer, how the embabies were doing, ect.

After an hour and a hlaf the doctor and the embryologist finally came in. It was Dr. Robins who was really nice and he told me "we are transferring 4 today"....I was like "WHAT?!"....i guess Dr. P said to put in 4 so they "hatched" 4. He said the 4th one was only a 4 cell and most likely "wont make it"...So we didnt have the heart to say NO...what if he/she is a little fighter and thats the one that sticks?

In this room i could barely see the screen so i didnt get to see the flash of light when the embryos went in....They told me to lay there for 15 minutes (another new thing) then i could get up, pee, get dressed and leave.

So i walked out of there with:

2- 8 cells
1- 7 cells
1- 4cells

inside my uterus...

I layed around all day yesterday and plan on doing the same thing today.

Now we wait..

Day 2 report

Welp i go tomorrow at 9:20am for transfer. I have:

3 -4 cells
3 - 2 cells

So when we (Dr. P and I) talked about transfer w/o PGD her plan of attack was to put in 3-4 on day 3.....im completely against 4...nervous about 3 but i trust her. I guess we'll find out tomorrow what is recommended and me and Pete will go along with whatever they suggest - expect for the "4" part...

So it 14 hours ill be PUPO (pregnant- until proven otherwise) :)

Oh and i finally feel better..People ask me all the time what ER feels like. Its funny my ovaries dont hurt at all afterwards its the top of my belly. It basically feels like someone kicked me in the stomach 20+ times and i have internal bruising.

I cant do acupuncture until Monday so we are going to take the weekend and hang out as a family, which is my most favorite this to do :)

Fert Report!

9 eggs retrieved...8 mature...6 fertilized!!

Im psyched with that number...i was going to be happy with 3 so 6 is awesome! They said ill have a day 3 transfer on Saturday. Ive never done a day 3 transfer but i think its time for something different :) Im pretty sure we'll put in 3.

Im feeling better today, still sore but OK. Im missing out on Turkey Day at my inlaws but i need one more day to really relax. Plus Jack doesnt get the concept im in pain and wants me to do everything (which i happily do, but im spent now).

Pete was also sick last night and went to bed early last night and i was put on Jack duty...

pete made me a gluten free turkey dinner before he left, what agreat hubby :)

Egg Retrieval

Besides anxiety everything went fine...my IV got put in on the first attempt so thats good news. Dr. Wheeler did my retrieval, i never had her before but she was pretty nice. The only thing is is we only got 9 eggs... All my other retrievals i had 12-20 eggs so this is the lowest i ever had but my E2 was the highest i ever had...weird. Im hoping for 5 to make it to the growing stages. Im guessing ill end up with a 3 day transfer since i didnt get many eggs. If thats the case i feel ok putting in 3 even i know triplets are still a possiblity.

I cant contrl this so whatever is to happen will happen. Im just hoping these 9 eggs are all mature so they all get a chance to fertilize. Im suppose to call at 2 for my fert report...but im thinking they may call me earlier since its thanksgiving.

PLEASE.....

Triggering

So my E2 yesterday was 1474 and today it was 2175

Todat showed 19 meaurable follicles...they all were measuring smaller then yesterday?! Which makes no sense but im triggering so im happy with that.

Going in Wednesday at 700am...

Dr. P cant do my ER which sucks but what can u do...

hopefully this is it!

follie check #3

Even tho im at a 22, they are pushing me another day

L: 22,20, 17, 17

R: 21.5, 21.5, 16, 15.5, 14.5, 14, 13.5, 13

So thats 12 measurable...20 all together since i have 8 less then 12. She wants the little guys to catch up a bit more...so lets hope for a good dozen :)

My E2 was in the 840's yesterday and i forgot to ask today...ill find out tomorrow when i go back.

Follie Check #2

I made some good progress..

L0: 19.5, 18,16.5, 13 4<12

RO: 20.5, 19, 14.5, 13, 13.5, 12 4<12

So i have 18 follicles 10 measurable and 5 mature. My biggest is a 20.5 so im getting one more day..thank goodness...curious to see what tomorrow is going to bring.

Yesterday my E2 was 343..

Follie check #1

So we have 14 follicles with 5 measurable and 3 are mature with my biggest being 19. The nurse thinks ill be back tomorrow...she said the ones that werent measurable were all around 11 so hopefully by tomorrow, all will be measurable and that 19 will stall in growth so i can a few more days/eggs under my belt - no pun intended :)

LO: 19,17.5, 14, 12 3<12
RO: 15.5 6< 12

Will edit when i get my E2 level.

Now things get interesting

After 6 weeks of waiting we are finally in the stim phase. Today im on day 4..i usually "stim" for 9-10 days. I went in for a E2 check today and things are moving ALOT faster then my last 3 cycles. My e2 was 274 (which is even higher then what it was with Jack). Egg retrieval will be either tuesday or wednesday at this rate.

I go backFriday for an u/s to see whats really cooking in there!

Im begging for this to work this time....