tons of pictures!

35 weeks...he's in the process of kicking me so thats why my face looks distorted!

belly button still hasnt popped out!

Nursery pics:

SHOWER pics (my side of the fam's..didnt as many pics as i'd of liked)

me and curry

Adam and Sage

the race is close! :)

DECORATIONS:

wish i had before pics!!

35 weeks!!!!!!

We're getting close!

I am VERY uncomfortable now. About 80% of his movements are really hurting me, i can barely stand for more then 5 minutes, i just cant get comfortable. I love it all though and im so excited that in about 2- 2 1/2 weeks im going to meet my little man. I also love the pain b/c i know he is growing and getting stronger.

We are ready for this lil guy. Everything is washed, put away, assembled ect. We just need him :)

My BPP/NSTs all were fine this week. Im going tuesday for 35wk appt, were ill get my GBS culture done and an internal exam (im so excited about this, even though i know its very unlikely anything will be happening).

Oh and dont worry im posting a belly pic for today along with some more shower pics...so check back later for those :)

34 weeks :)

3ish more weeks! Im so excited!!! Things around here are just about finished. The only main things left are the curtains for the nursery (which my mom is coming down this week to do) and one REALLY good cleaning of the house.

Today we went to our All Day Childbirth class. Didnt learn too much but found out some good ways to relax, so thatll be helpful.

Overall, im still feeling pretty good, uncomfortable, but good. My tailbone feels smashed and bruised along with my bladder. Ive been getting some pretty sharp pains in my left side but learned today its round ligament pain, while i thought it was from Jack kicking something. Jacks movements are also becoming more and more painful but they still make me smile. My feet and hands are very swollen and im also getting restless legs at night.

We are meeting 2 pediatricians this week. We're going to see just 2 b/c these are the 2 that are consistently being recommended. I also have my BPP/NST tests too.

So thats it...i CANNOT wait!! :)

let me explain :)

Sorry i forgot to explain wha a BPP and NST are! lol

They both check on the well-being of the baby

BPP - is a Biophysical Profile...its an u/s that they measure the amount of fluid around the baby, his activity (he needs to make 3 good movements in 30 minutes) and see if he is practice breathing for at least 15 seconds.

NST - is a Non-Stress Test. They strap 2 monitor on me, one to measure uterine activity and the other to measure Jacks heartrate. I also push a button whenever i feel him move. When he moves they like to see his heartrate go up 15 points and then fall back down to baseline, he needs to do this 2 times in 20 minutes.

So now you know what im talking about :)

33.5 wk appt and BPP/NST

Overall everything is good.

BP 120/60, weight is -1.2 pounds...so my total is now 15 pounds overall...i keep losing weight now that im on this GDM diet! Urine is fine, measuring on target, Jacks heartrate was 160.
He said "your growth u/s was right on target" i was like "WHAT?!, his femurs are measuring 4 weeks BEHIND!"...and he said "well, your short arent you?"...lol. So he looked it up in his little book and Jack is in the 3rd percentile for his legs (they want it in btw 10-90%) and 10% is 6.0 and Jack is 5.7 so the doctor said we are talking not even a half an inch! So that made me feel better, then he said that since the head and belly are measuring a few days ahead thats even better. He said he'd be more concerned if Jack was measuring 4 weeks behing overall. I guess the only real indicator for short femurs is Downs but we know Jack is healthy b/c we did PGD. So the doc told me not to worry about it...so i "wont" :).

The we talked about induction. He is going to start doing internals at my next appt along with the GBS. If im not dialated by 37wks, he said he can still try to induce but if im rock hard i can opt to do a c/s. I know this is very controversial but i know all you ladies understand that with everything i went through to get here once im term, im done with the worry and just want the baby OUT, no matter how it happens. Im terrified that i made it this far and have something happen, so im all about the elective c/s if it comes to that.

After my appt. i went in for a NST and BPP and lil man was ALL over the place...passed with no problems..the nurse also checked his head placement and said "wow, this kid is LOW!" :)

So 3 1/2 more weeks or so...WOW!!

Growth u/s

Lil man is living up to his name! He's measuring 32.6wks (im 33.3) and weighting in at 4 1/2 pounds which is the 27th percentile which is all good. But his little legs are meauring 4 weeks behind (they were 2 wks behind before) so im trying not to stress about it, hoping its just genetics. I go thursday to talk to the doctor.

Sometimes being under the microscope causes more worries then needed!

33 weeks!

We're getting there!! :) :)

Im still feeling pretty good but the uncomfortable stage is definately rearing its ugly head. I cant stand for too long b/c all the pressure i feel in my girly regions is just too much! My tailbone, hips and the ligaments are aching more and more. Jacks kicks also are more painful now...but i love it all :)

This week i had 2 BPP/NSTs and lil man did great..phew! My appt with the Lovenox doc went well and ill be starting on Heparin at 35 wks...if im on Lovenox i cant get an epidural so since you never know how labor is going to go i wanted to at least have that option so if i end up with a c-section i wont have to be put under. This week i have a BPP/NST on monday and thursday, a growth u/s on tuesday and my OB appt on thursday. Crazy amount of appts!

This weekend was my side of the families/friends baby shower. My mom and sister did such an awesome job, they made the garage an outdoor theme...it was great. We got alot of the eesentials. Im so appreciative of everyone and their generosity!! Im so amazed all of this is happening. So now i get to putter around in the nursery and put it all away once we do the returning and get a few more things. When i did laundry this week i washed my hospital clothes and put them in the suitcase...that was surreal!!

32 wk update/belly and shower pics!!

Our baby shower for Petes side of the family was this weekend. We got so much and ALOT of the big things, we are so appreciative and im still overhwlemed that *I* had a BABY shower!!

Its why i Love him :):

My gram made this quilt! This will be cherished forever!!

Surrounded by presents!

Cute pic of us :) I dont know if you can see it unless you enlarge the pic but petes shirts says "Look what i did" with a stick figure of a pregnant lady, lol :)

my gram, mom, sister, sage and me!

32 wk belly pic!

Sorry it took me so long to update but as you can see, it was a busy weekend! The shower was beautiful my SIL did a GREAT job! It went by so fast, i had so much fun!!! Next weekend is my families and friends baby shower, im so excited. :)

Im feeling pretty good. Having a much harder time getting around some day but its not all the time. My ligaments are REALLY sore in my pelvic region and pregnancy insomnia is hitting more frequently but its OK :) I just lay awake and feel Jack move all around....and i mean ALL around! My bladder feels like a vice (or a 4 lb baby) is squishing it..ouch!

Last Thursday i had my first NST/BPP. Little man passed the BPP in minutes but was sleeping during the NST so it took alittle longer and the nurse had to keep coming over and rubbing the monitor to try and wake him up. He was moving like crazy right before she put the monitor on but he stopped as soon as she strapped me in, lol... he always stops when someone else touches me, lol.

This week i have an appt with the lovenox doctor to figure out when we will switch over to heparin. I also have a NST/BPP tomorrow and friday.

31 wk appt

Things are still good :)

BP was 136/70, i measured 32wks, Jacks heartbeat was good. He noticed my swollen feet but didnt seem concerned at all. I lost a half pound (and that was with wet hair!) So the total so far is 16 pounds.

He looked over my sugars and said they were perfectly fine and only wants me to check them 2 days a week now... woo-hoo!! :) :)

He said i should start my BPP and NST's next week. That will be 2x a week. I go back 8/22 for a growth u/s and 8/23 to see him. Im hoping all these appts make the time go by faster.

31 weeks!

6 more weeks and im going to be a mommy!!

Im feeling pretty good. But ill tell ya, if ONE more person tells me im not going to make it to 37wks b/c it looks like he's "about to fall out" im going to scream! Now, really, who says that to someone?! My ribs are achey but nothing major, heartburn here and there but also very tolerable. Jacks movements are very well defined now, and its more rolling and sliding then actual "kicking". Its pretty cool to see, my stomach does all these waves and turns. Im going to miss feeling him when im no longer pregnant! Oh, and im back to needing naps during the day but thank god its not as bad as the 1T!!

We went up to Maine this weekend and had a great time at my aunts. I got to go swimming for the first time all summer and it was quite nice :) Next weekend is Petes side of the familys baby shower, which im so excited about!! I never thought id have a baby shower and now its only a week away!! Tomorrow i have an OB appt. so ill update after that.

Hope everyone had a good weekend!!

Getting Antsy, but its AUGUST!

Ok i know im "only" 30+ wks but im starting to get really antsy. I def dont want him coming now but itd be OK for time to go by a tad quicker!!

I just want to see him, feel him, kiss him, see what he looks like ect. I want to be immersed in my little family with my great hubby. Pete even said last night "i cant wait to be sitting here with him sleeping on my chest." We are SO mentally ready for him.

Of course i have my fears. Will our realtionship change and how? Will we settle in a good routine? Will he LIKE me?! I see how much Sage loves my sister and she always says "i cant wait for you to feel this love." Im so excited to feel that love. Im petrified when hes a teenager...but thats a LONG ways away.

Surprisingly im not afraid of labor. Maybe b/c i know im in good hands and i know the hospital VERY well and the ppl taking care of my after i know personally (ill be staying on the floor i work on)! Dr. B is a great doc so i know he wont let anything happen. Im nervous for AFTER, will he be OK?

Im so excited, anxious and nervous! I cant wait :)

We're in the thirties!! (30 wks)

Yes, i know what your thinking...IM HUGE!!! Theres no denying that :) You will not believe the comments i recieve from ppl. Some guy in Target tonight let me go in front of him b/c "i needed to go home and pack my bags b/c i was about to have a baby!" When i told him i had 6-7wks left (i dont even tell ppl when im actually due since i get this look of HORROR) he looked at me and said "you have GOT to be kidding!?" Nice, huh? Then a lady walking her dog the other day told me i looked like her daughter who was due THAT DAY...thanks! I LOVE my belly and ppl just need to get over the fact that im carrying the way i am!

So other then the "OMG your HUGE!" comments, things are going well. My whole pelvic region is very sore. I guess its from the ligaments and joints loosening to prepare for birth. I dont think my body got the memo that my hips will do just fine with the size they are now! My bladder is also getting pretty beat up.

The Diabetes is by no lie a HUGE pain in the ass!! When your pregnant you want to eat what YOU want WHEN you want it and you just cant with this. My blood sugars have been fine. We went out to lunch today at the Wayside Inn today and i tried very hard to make good choices but you know what? I wanted some apple pie! lol..so much blood sugar was 127 2 hours after (should be 120 or below)..oh well. Ive also been doing 20 minute walks after each meal and that seems to really help and keep my sugars below 100. Im meeting with the nutritionist this coming friday and hopefully ill learn more choices as to what to eat b/c im getting sick of peanut butter and cheese and crackers real quick!! But ill do whatever i need to to keep this lil man healthy and strong.

I always talk about my pregnancy but havent given much credit to my great husband. He has been WONDERFUL! I seriously have the best hubby :) He rubs my feet every night, helps me get out of bed in the middle of the night so i can pee, rubs my back ect., ect. I think ill keep him. He also says "thanks for doing all that you do for our son", which really helps me. Being pregnant has def. made me fall more in love with him and brought our relationship to another level. I love him very much :)

One year ago...

This time last year i was driving into Providence and calling the fertility doctor to let him know i had a + HPT. I was hopeful but cautiously optimistic since this was my 3rd pregnancy in 9 months. Well i wont get into details since we know it didnt work out.

I really dont dwell on the past but sometimes it comes back to haunt you. My past is what makes me so nervous with this pregnancy and what makes me not enjoy this pregnancy as much as i would like.

My past is also what makes me appreciate what i have so much more then if all the m/c's didnt happen. I wish they didnt happen, but i wouldnt change anything b/c this whole journey has made me who i am now....and has brought Jack to me.

I will never forget those angels i lost. Jack is my miracle baby and all those late nights and moments where most will want to scream, i will relish in every second of it b/c it took me so long to experience motherhood.

So just b/c i dont talk about my m/c's doesnt mean i dont think about them anymore. Im just in a different spot in my life and i am so grateful to be here!

Appt and u/s

Jack is measuring at 29.0wks, which is very good :) His little legs measure 2 wks behind but the doctor isnt concerned since he has been measuring that way all along and both pete and I are not exactly giants :)

My BP and weight were good. Jack HR was 140-150. Im going in every 2 weeks now for appts, so next appt is 8/6 (our anniversary)! And we talked about the BIG day. He wants Jack out in the 37th week so it looks like it'll be between 9/14 and 9/19. It all depends on when my cervix starts to dialate. I also start BPPs (more intensive u/s's) at 32 weeks. So things are moving along!

29 weeks!

Things are almost done around here, most importantly,the dogs are DOWNSTAIRS!!! We slept until 7am this morning, unheard of with a crying dog at 5am usually. There's nothing major that needs to be done (besides finish the nursery and organize stuf, but we cant do that until we get the "stuff" :))

Pregnancy wise im doing well. Physically my tailbone, hips and pubic bone hurts. Sleep is now officially an Olympic event! I wake up in pain at least every 1-2 hours and it KILLS to roll over, it seriously feels like my pubic bone going to snap in half and my hips burn. Oh and its pretty comical to see me try to get up to pee since my stomach muscles dont work like they used to. My ribs also hurt from time to time but not bad. Jack moves my whole belly when he kicks now, which is so fun to watch. Some of his kicks make me jump b/c they are so hard! He has such a personality already...he'll kick like crazy if me or pete are rubbing my belly or talking but AS SOON as someone goes to feel he'll either stop completely or only give light taps! Little stinker!!

Mentally i am SO BORED! It doesnt help that im out of work and all week im here, alone. I try to have plans for during the week with some friends to break it up and that really helps. I know he has a good 7 weeks left to bake but i am SO READY for that time to be here! I just want to start my life and meet him!! Once August gets here itll go fast since the first 3 weekends we have plans and doctor appts are going to be almost weekly with u/s's and regular appts.

I really wanted to go away just the two of us before our life changes FOREVER but i dont think its going to be possible. Plus, i cant really walk for too long b/c my feet swell and my tailbone hurts after about 5 minutes of sitting...and the heat is almost unbearable after 5 minutes..oh well :) Ill take all of it over a vaca ANYTIME. I truly do love being pregnant! (but it just lasts TOO LONG).

So this week i have my u/s and OB appt. on monday. Im going to ask what the plan is going to be for the next 7 wks and hopefully have an idea when hes coming (im thinking its going to be 9/14). Tuesday i have my gest. Diabetic class (oh fun) to learn the diet and how to test my sugars. Im actually excited about this diet b/c i heard you actually lose weight on it and it helps to stay on it after you have the babe b/c it helps you shed the pounds quicker, so ill take it! :)

Lots of pics! (28wk belly pics & nursery)

Look at that belly!!! HOLY SMOKES :)

Heres the nursery so far:

Stuffed animal wall mounts... found at Madmoose.com

The tree,bear and trees are lights....looks really cool at night

the fish swings back and forth

my JACK letters, they are hung up with brown and tan checked ribbon

Nursery BEFORE:

Its coming out good so far :) We still need curtains, a rug and hang up some more decorations :)

28 weeks!

Well i gotta say is my luck is funny...i FAILED my 3 hour glucose tet, so im a Gestational Diabetic! The kicker is, i failed it by 3 points! My fasting was normal, my one hour was off my 1 point, my 2 hour was WAY high but its OK to have one high number and my 3 hour was off by 2 points. So if my 1 and 3 hour were WNLs i would have passed! Oh well. I have to call monday to find out when the diabetic class is and it looks like on top of the 2 shots i give myself a day i know how to prick my finger 4 times a day! Its a good thing im not scared of needles anymore!

Im starting to feel a tad uncomfy. I cant sit for a long time or my tailbone hurts, and my pubic bone is really sore when i move around at night. My belly button is almost flat, i dont think ill lose it completely but its getting close! All other things are still the same.

The nursery is coming along. I do have some pics of it so far and i did take a 28wk pic today but i just dont feel like uploading right now so ill post them all later :)

27 wks/ 7mo./ 3rd trimester!!!!

I NEVER thought id ever make it to the 3rd trimester! The 2T D...r...a...g...g...e...d!! I know im going to be uncomfortable soon but ill take it just as long as long as nothing bad happens this trimester, im good :)

Im feeling pretty good, some things are new from the last few weeks:
The heat is def. starting to get to me but its not too too bad. On days where i know its going to be hot and humid i just stay in. But i def notice i get hotter quicker than most. Also my feet hurt if im standing too long...pete needs to rub them every night to help. My pubic bone is also hurting, i hope its not separating like Currys did. Im also getting restless legs at night which isnt painful, just annoying. And ever since i could feel jack i could feel him hit my bladder every now and then, but, now that hes 2 1/2 pounds thats starting to HURT...and it constantly feels like i have to pee but its just from Jack putting pressure on my bladder! Jacks movements are much more pronounced now too. Its really neat if i have my hand on my belly when hes moving i can feel his heels or knees going across. And my belly looks like i stuffed a basketball up my shirt, which is pretty humorous when i see myself in store windows and things b/c i really dont feel THAT big...but my reflection tells me otherwise!

Monday we are getting our furniture and im super excited about that :) On Tuesday im going to do the dreaded 3 hour glucose test :( I am not looking forward to that!! And wed and thursday my mom is coming down and we are going to Newport and seeing Kathy Griffin..that should be good :)

Things around the house are slowly getting accomplished. The biggest thing that still needs to be done is to move the dogs downstairs...i CANNOT wait...Sadie moves alot in her sleep and they wake up really early...i just want me and pete and our room(well until Jack)!! Im hoping that can get down in the next couple weeks. This week we should have the nursery completed so hopefully ill have pics of it up this week!

26 weeks!

Here are the 26wk pics...does anyone see a difference from 24wks? I think it looks like im filling out more on top of the bell, like hes up higher, does that make sense?

People have been so nice with their comments lately. Last night 2 random strangers told me i looked wonderful but then today someone said "when are you due, ANYDAY?" GRRR...reminds me of that scene in Knocked Up when shes interviewing the stars and everyone cant believe she has 2 months left...by telling her how huge she is....PEOPLE!

Last night we went to see Cirque De Soliel..it was pretty good, weird, but very entertaining. Today we did laundry and got the dog pen for the dogs...one thing off "the list". We also found out today that our furniture is in!! Its coming July 9th so i should have nurser pics up in the next few weeks!!

Pregnancy wise i feel great! All the same happening are occuring but nothing to complain about. Im sure that will all change in the next few weeks since im rounding the corner to the "uncomfortabel" trimester...but ill take it all in a heartbeat.

I got my 3 hour glucose instructions today in the mail, so im going to make an appt Monday and hopefully have it done on wednesday. My mom is going to come with me so im not too bored then we are going to pick out some fabric for jacks windows.

Have a good weekend :)

OH NO! My poor veins!

I was talking to pete last night saing "i havent heard from the doctor, i must have passed my glucose test...YAY!!" Well would you know i get this message on my cell this morning:

"Hi Torri, its Dr. B, im calling to let you know you FAILED your one hour glucose test by 8 points. Im sending you instructions for the 3 hour GTT."

I think the look on my face was priceless since pete was cracking up! Nice, huh?

Also im anemic so now i have to take 2 iron pills a day.

Oh well...

25wk appt and glucose test

Appt went well :) M BP was 118/66 (its been that the whole time lol!). My belly measured perfectly, Jacks heartrate was 150 and i gained 4 pounds (15 pounds total now). I go back July 23rd for an appt and a growth u/s. Then after that he'll start seeing us every 2 weeks!

Then i went over to the lab to do the glucose test. Ive heard nightmares about this...but it wasnt bad AT ALL! I heard you had to drink this huge glass of nasty sugary stuff but it was only like a half cup of something that tasted like ginger ale! I hope i pass...i will not be happy if i have to do the 3 hour glucose test. Not b/c of the time it will take but b/c i have the shittests veins EVER and getting 3 draws that close together will NOT be fun (or easy!).

25 weeks! :)

11 more weeks!! EEEK and YAY lol.

Im up at my moms right now. I spent thurs and last night here to get away for a bit (but i am SO ready to go HOME!). I miss Pete and my dogs..and my bed. Today im going out with my sister and Sage for breakfast and going yard saling my mom. Then its off to a graduation party to show off my belly hehe :)

Pregnancy wise im doing really good. The BH havent been bad..maybe 1-2 a day whereas it was alot more when i started getting them around 18wks. My stretch marks are becoming pretty itchy but im trying NOT to itch them, and theres no longer 2..more like 6 now. Ive been getting this really weird spasm right underneath my sternum, its really weird...gotta ask Dr. B about that one! Ive also been getting kinda ICK feeling every now and then and im chalking it up to my insides getting all squished. Oh and now i have bloody noses here and there and my nose doesnt know if it wants to be congested or DRY. I think thats it (and by the way these are NOT complaints, i write it all down so i will remember for a later date or so someone else whose in the same spot can say "WHEW, im not the ONLY one!" I LOVE being pregnant!

I have a doc appt this coming Tuesday along with my 1 hour glucose test. I really hope i pass!
Have a good weekend everyone!!! :)

24 week u/s :)

YAAAAY!!! :)
Jack is measuring right on for dates (he was 2 days behind at our 18wk u/s, so im glad he's measuring exact!, even though 2 days is nothing...but i was worried he was going to keep lagging behind...) And he weights 1 1/2 pounds which is PERFECT!

He is head down with his hands above his head so the pokes ive been getting down really low are his hands and elbows! lol He gave a few good jabs at the wand thingy and that felt very strange! It was so cool to see his features more pronounced. We even got to see him yawn! So cute!! I was so psyched to see all this b/c at our 18wk u/s the lady didnt show us ANYTHING! So i finally got to see his belly/bladder/heart and his penis! lol

AND for the best news of the day....
The SCH is GONE!!!!!! No sign of blood ANYWHERE! And my cervix is 3.4 and very thick, so things look GREAT! :)

GO US! :) :)

24 wk belly pics :)

Heres 18 weeks for comparison

24 wks...they say my uterus is the size of a soccer ball! CRAZY!!

V.I.A.B.I.L.I.T.Y!!!! 24wks :)

YAYYYYYY!!!!!! WOO-HOO!!!!

This is a HUGE week for me. Little Jack now has a chance at survival if born right now (but he better stay in for 12+ more weeks!).

24wks 40% chance 28wks 90% 30 wks survival is just about definite

So im feeling pretty much the same. Ive know reached the stage were random ppl are coming up to me and asking me the "pregnancy ?'s"..when you due? what are you having? whats his name?...which then leads into "when i was pregnant...." or "when you have your baby you should...". I find it all quite humorous but when strangers start molesting my belly its kinda odd. If i know you i dont care if you rub it, but if i dont, then please keep your hands to yourself!

This week (wed) i go in for a u/s to check on little mans growth. Im excited about it b/c i havent seen him in 6 weeks! Also we'll find out if the SCH is gone..boy do i hope so!

Oh, i did take a pic today..it will be up shortly.

Keep the comments coming please :)

Who is reading?

Ok people, post some comments! I want to know who is reading about this journey. I appreciate everyones thoughts and support throughout this ride even if i know you or not, or havent talked to you in awhile, it doesnt matter. Please comment so i know im not talking to myslef :)

That means everyone! Come out, come out wherever you are! :)

If you dont want to comment, ill take an e-mail Viktorya106@hotmail.com.

23 weeks! :)

Its so nice that we are counting backwards now! 13 more weeks until Jack will be here! To put it in perspctive 13 weeks ago was mid march...we can do this! :)

Some ppl have been asking me why he's coming in the 36th week (mostly likely 9/12 or 9/14). Its b/c i need to take Lovenox (blood thinner) and its dangerous for both Jack and I to go to term. For me b/c if i go into labor i may hemmorrage, so they like to control labor so i will be induced. Also the medication isnt as effective once i pass 36 weeks so i could develop a blood clot which could be fatal to both of us....scary! so im taking the induction at 36wks, can ya blame me?

So this week was good. I got out of the house and met curry,sage and ashley up at Blackstone. It was th first time i drove farther then 3 miles! It was nice to get out! I bought Jack some sleepers and a little outfit. Pete said no more clothes...but i cant help it since im so picky...i HATE winnie th pooh and insects on boys clothes - im all about the prep look :) so when i see somthing i like, i NEED to buy it! lol. Melissa and Warren also came down, it was nice to see them. I truly miss all my friends and wish i lived a tad closer so we all could get together more, rather then once every 4 months!

Pregnancy wise im still feeling pretty good. Each week im losing my belly buttton more and more. My stretch marks grow about a 1/4 an inch a week...theres only 2 so i cant complain (and i wont anyways b/c i know its just part of it all and i wouldnt trade it for anything!!). I get heartburn every so often, and im getting a weird sensation under my breasts- like a tingling - i think its the skin stretching. Jack is getting stronger and he hangs out on my right side, im def lopsided lol. Around 20 weeks my headaches, bowel issues and queasiness all subsided...i guess it cause my hormones have "leveled off" so my body is adjusted. Sleep is somtimes a challenge, not b/c im uncomfortable but b/c after i get up and pee (which is about 2x a night) i have a tough time falling back to sleep. Sometimes im up at 3am for good. My mom got me a Snoogle pillow for Mothers Day - LIFESAVER! I think thats all..

I want to send out a special CONGRATULATIONS to Joe and Peg who just got the news they are able to go pick up their little boy in Guatemala very soon! YAY!
Also to Jamie and Wade who found out this week they are pregnant-again! God Bless you jamie...im scared of 1 and your gonna have 4!

22 week belly pic

this is 12 weeks for a comparison since im wearing the same shirt.

i dont think theres too much of a difference from 20 weeks.

a day late- 22 weeks :)

First i have to say my E ky isnt working well, so plase excus any typos.

This week is "picture week" but i just dont feel like downloading it right now...ill get to it soon.

This week was nice. It went by fast b/c of th long weekend which was nic b/c i hate it when time fels like its standing still.

Pregnancy wise, im feeling lots of round ligament pain, Jack is kicking harder, and im getting BH about 5-7 times a day.

This wekend we registered!!! I didnt want to until 24 weeks but pete was excited to do so, so we went. It took us ysterday and today to finish. I dont feel comfortable putting my last name on here but its at BRU, so if you know me well enough, you can find it. There were alot of moms we ran into while we were there and they gave us good advice throughout, so that was nice. They told us some good tips on what to get that they didnt feel they needed until there babes came.

OK, so were are the comments? I know some ppl read regularly but nevr leave a commnt...leave them! i feel like all i do is talk to myself on here!!

21 week appt :)

We're still trucking along, thank god! :)

My BP was good at 118/66...Jack heartbeat was 147...my fundus was meausring perfectly, i gained 10 pounds total so far. All my questions were answered and everything i was concerned about is fine. I just need to call if i have more than 4 braxton hicks in one hour. And he took me out of work for the rest of the pregnancy. So no more work until janurary!

I go back june 20th for a growth u/s and june 26th for an appt.

21 weeks!

HOORAY! :)

This week has been pretty productive. We bought the crib and bereau, we found a set we both fell in love with at Rooms to Grow and its going to take 12 weeks for it to come in so we got it. Pete also put up a closet organizer which looks AWESOME and made me fall in love with him all over again lol. We also went through the storage room and got rid of a bunch of stuff.

This weekend we are cleaning out the unfinished part of the basement and putting the guest bedroom bereau down there and Pete put up pictures ive been asking to be put up for almost a year!!! I think my husband is nesting!

Pregnancy wise im feeling good. Im getting big and i noticed a hint of 2 stretch marks forming :( One on my side and the other by my belly button. Ive been putting cocoa butter on for 3 years, so thats just a crock of shit! Jack is getting stronger, the other night he was bouncing all around and pete felt it all, then at the end of his dancing he flipped (or something) and i jumped about 5 feet! It was the weirdest feeling!!

Ive got an appt with Dr. B on tuesday. Im really hoping he lets me stay out of work sinc ei havent bleed or spotted for 2 weeks. I think taking it easy is whats best for me. Going back to work and running around just doesnt seem like a good idea to me. We'll also find out the detialed results of our ultrasound 2 and a half weeks ago...i hope everything is fine!

20 weeks!!

Here i am in all my glory at 20 weeks...sorry for the lack of make-up but at least im dressed :)

And here are some super cute pictures of my neice, Sage and her Uncle Pete!

Isnt she just the cutest! Ok, so another week! YAY! This is a huge milestone in my mind. This week was good. Jack is moving alot now but changed position the last couple of days so i dont feel him as often but its still about 10 times a day. My ribs are starting to ache b/c things are getting pushed up which isnt pleasant and my back hurts from the weight of my belly and layin down all the time. But im not complaining at all...im loving every minute!

We went recliner looking today and bought one - EEK! Our first big baby purchase but it can be used in the living room as well when he gets bigger. We are still on the hunt for a crib and matching bereaus - no luck yet but, thats OK since i dont want to buy it until 24 weeks anyways.

I cant wait to feel more comfortable with the pregnancy. I hate being so nervous but i know the reality of things and to tell you the truth i just want september to get here! I want to just have this little man safe in my arms. Thank goodness im getting induced at 37 weeks, i dont think my mind could take being late!

Dr. B never called about the u/s so im assuming everything looked good. I guess ill know for sure on the 29th. I know i should call but if there IS something to worry about i'd rather not know right now.

But im feeling good and each week i start to get more and more excited. I have some little outfits that i just stare at and cant wait to have him here to put him in them. I hope the next 4 weeks fly by b/c then we will be "safe".

Someones Knocking!

Jack is making his presence known. He's been poking me pretty good in my sides, i think its his feet cause i also feel little slithers/bumps in the middle which im guessing is his little arms. Its so fun to feel him move, i wish he did it all day. I probably feel him every 1-2 hours and when he moves it lasts anywhere from one thump to 5-10 minutesof breakdancing :).

On Mothers Day my mom felt him move. Then today Pete felt him. Im so glad Pete was able to feel him too. I feel bad i feel him all day, so it was great to experience with him.

This is such an incredible feeling!!

19 weeks!

YAY!

Doing pretty goood. My bad has been bothering me from laying down all the time. I think i need to invest in a pregnancy body pillow. This week i also started getting braxton hicks contractions. They dont hurt and are not consistent, but i still dont like any kinda of "contractions" right now!

Dr. B still hasnt called to let me know how the u/s went. He may call this a.m. I sure hope so cause i dont want to wait until the 29th to know everything.

Im still spotting. It'll stop for a day or 2 then come back..as long as the babe is healthy, ill deal.

Its starting to sink in that we a having a boy. Im so excited that i can connect to him and i can call him by name.

Im still really nervous about things but each day that passes is one step closer until he gets here. Ill start breathing a little easier once i hit 24 weeks. 35 more days...it feels like im in the 1T all over again!!

It's a BOY!!!

i KNEW it!!! I have better intuition than my sister LOL :)

I was suppose to go yesterday but they cancelled my u/s b/c the techs daughter was "sick". So i went in today (thank gid they didnt have me wait a week!)

The tech wasnt very forthcoming with info. But she said he measured perfectly and everything looked "good". My placenta seemed to have moved and is no longer low lying. I still have a pool of blood by my cervix so ill probably spot for a little while longer (even though theres been virtually nothing for 2 days! knock on wood!!).

Dr. B will mostly likely call tomorrow with the detailed report. Im so glad Jack looks good and im hoping to get even better news when the doctor calls. I WANT THIS BLEED TO HEAL!!

YAY we're having a son!!

18 weeks (5mo.)!! And Pictures.

18 weeks bare belly!!

18 weeks (no PJs this time - surprise!)

We made it another week (Thank you!) Im still spotting but what can ya do? Otherwise im feeling really good. Im starting to get heatburn and queasiness because my stomach is getting all sotrs of squished but ill take it in a heartbeat! :)

Little Babe has been getting more and more active (which is by far the coolest thing). Some days he more squiggly then others, but on his quiet days he gives me little pokes every now and then. When hes active it feels like a fish is swimming along my belly...weird but very cool!

Last weekends scare has set us back on planning. Which is prob bad since we have alot to do.

We have to:

*Clean out the basement

*Take EVERYTHING out of the guest bedroom and put it in the basement.

(these 2 things ALONE will take probably a good month)

*Order furnitire (which can take 12 weeks)

*Possibly paint guest bedroom (see how i cant say "nusery" yet).

*Get dog pen/put up a fence

And thats only what i can think of. I really dont want to get too ahead of myself until 24 weeks, and thats 6 weeks away!

We have 4 days until we know if Little Babe is a girl or a boy. So will it be a Jack or a Lily (yes, charlotte has lost :( )??? I cant wait to know!

forgot to add weekend event

this sunday i had another bright red gush of blood - mother f-er!!! I even passed 2 clots with some crampiness..so off to the ER we went. I did use my doppler before we went and little babe sounded just fine but i just wanted to make sure everything was OK.

I didnt get the whole w/u like i did the first time since they basically knew what was causing it. The bleeding wasnt nearly as bad as the first bleed (thank god!). I am now spotting brown blood and im hoping things will FINALLY fix themselves after this.

This is going to be one long pregnancy...

17 week appt.

Little Babe is just fine. My BP was 118/60, i gained 1.8 pounds since last visit 4 weeks ago (YAY!), my uterus is growing appropriately. Oh, and the heartrate was 152.

Dr. B wasnt concerned about the bleeding, just said it happens sometimes and it will hopefully heal in the next couple weeks. I am out of work until the 29th. If im still spotting then, then im out of work for the rest of the pregnancy. He said i can drive now and walk around a mall, just no heavy lifting just basically lay down and rest as much as possible.

So it was a good appt. Now im anxiously awaiting our big u/s next wednesday....8 more days!!

17 weeks!! :)

I think ive said it before but i love saturdays!! :)

This was a good week. My spirits are def better then the 2 weeks prior. The spotting is still around but Little Babe is doing just fine. His/her heartbeat is very strong and loud. Its crazy how a few weeks back it was faint and now its bounding when i listen - so cool!!

Last sunday i felt Little Babe move for the first time! If felt like popcorn popping but now it feel like someone is tickling me very lightly from the inside. Im so excited that im feeling it so soon. Since this is my first ive read alot of ppl dont feel it until 20+ weeks. Im excited to start feeling it harder and then pete being able to feel it!

Ive been starting to relax alot more and starting to think about getting ready for the babe. We know that LB is coming at 37 weeks at the latest. So that gives us mid sept, i want everything ready by August, so 3 months. So we are going today to look at recliners b/c it may take 12 weeks for it to come in. We are also going to BRU to look at cribs and bureaus also to see how much money we are going to need and how long it will take to come in. If we have a girl we are going with black furniture and if a boy dark brown.

Ive settled on a set for a girl but a boy is alot harder. Pete wants to do a hunting cabin theme for a boy but i cant find any bedding to go with it...grrr.

Heres the girl one:http://www.babysupermall.com/main/products/lai/lai65006v.html
(damn thing wont let me paste the picture).

So we go next week to find out the gender and im super excited about that! I always thought boy but lately ive been thinking girl. For a boy we decided on Jack Eugene and girls names are still in debate but its down to Lily, Charlotte, or Violet (MN will be Mae). What do you think?

My appt on tuesdya went well. The doc was more concerned about my sunburn than anything lol. She told me the spotting will hopefull stop soon. Im going to the OB on Tuesday.. im very excited about that. Im curious to see if he'll let me go back to work. If not thats OK since i got approved for TDI and ill be paid for the rest of the pregnancy and 6-8 weeks postpartum. Im still planning on staying out til January...that'll be 9 months out of work! But its OK so ill take it! :)

16 weeks with pics!

Heres today at 16 weeks. (i really wish i knew how to cut off my head, i always look like shit! in these pictures!) Pete takes them so fast i dont have time to smile!

heres 14 weeks since i never posted it.

So today is 16 weeks!!! Im STILL spotting, which is getting annoying but at least its not getting worse. Its heavier at night which makes no sense since im sleeping and doing no activity- humm?? I hope it all ends soon, that i can go back to work and start feeling normal again. I feel like i cant enjoy this time....

I did get out of the house yesterday. Pete had a meeting in CT so i went with him and afterwards we ate out by the water. It was such a beautiful day!! It did so much for my spirits to get OUT!

Physically i feel fine. My belly is lopsided and Little babe is on the left so i have this bulge there, its weird. Im anxiously awaiting to feel movement. Sometimes i feel little zaps but they are so faint i think its just belly bubbles. I have been getting slight heartburn but nothing bad. My headaches are still pretty consistent, im going to ask tuesday if they mean anything. And, finally, my jaw is healing! YAY!

So i have my OB med appt on tuesday...ill update after that.

Growing Pains

This week hasnt been fun. My TMJ is tortourous! Dr. B gave me a perscription for Vicodin, i had to take it every 3 1/2 hours on saturday and now just at night so i relax enough to allow the jaw to relax (i clench my teeth at night, and all the pressure is on one tooth and that tooth already has nerve damage so it hurt like a mother...) I have an appt next wednesday to hopefully get some kind of mouth piece to realign my jaw so i bite evenly again. But let me tell ya, a tight jaw is not fun! I cant talk, smile, laugh, eat, open my mouth...it hasnt been fun!

Onto Little Babe. Hes doing well. Heartbeat is still nice and strong. He's getting bigger. I can feel my uterus about 2-3 inches below my belly button. I feel alot of pulling in my uterus. I can no longer suck in. I feel bigger in clothes then naked...odd. The spotting is still sticking around. It started getting darker this weekend and heavier. I had 2-3 good gushes of brown blood on sunday so Dr. B got another phone call LOL! He said its normal, it could be the pocket of blood coming out or that the placenta moved again causing some irritation. He said since the babes heartrate was good and strong theres nothing to worry about (easy for him to say). Im hoping its just from the babe getting bigger and just pushing out the blood or that the sac is reconnecting itself, thus pushing out the blood.

Its 3 more weeks until my next u/s. Im trying my hardest to remain busy until then. I wish i could get another to check the bleed but, i cant. Im trying to just take it easy and hope for the best.

15 weeks

YAY! for time going by! Its 330a and i havent slept! My tmj is really acting up, its KILLING me! Usually i can take Vicodin but now i cant, so im suffering BIG TIME! I hate even taking Tylenol but i have no choice with all this pain (but its not even touching it!). If i cant handle it by the morning im calling Dr. B and asking him to call in a perscription! I just cant take it!

So babe news! Im still spotting but, its just old bloood (knock on wood!). When we went for the u/s on wednesday there still was quite a bit that needed to come out, so i want it OUT so everything can heal and be done with! So it looks like ill be on bedrest until at least may 9th (after the u/s). I have been a little more active, i get up and make me meals now - WOW!

The one thing i hate about bedrest is that you feel EVERY ache, which i cant help but analyze. Ive been getting alot of pulling in my lower abdomen. I can feel my uterus, its about midway from pubic bone and my belly button, pretty cool :)

So i just need this pain to go away and the bleed to clear up, but most importantly Little Babe is doing wonderfully, and thats all that matters.

Oh, btw, my cervix was 3.6-4.0 on the remeasurement- that makes me feel MUCH better!!

bedrest update

Its been a week. A week of pure anxiety. Ive had 2 really bad days where all i did was want to cry/cry. Im feeling better though. Each day i pass feels like an accomplishment. I AM GOING TO HAVE THIS BABY!!!

i sat here for 2 days researching incompetent cervix and basically scared the shit out of myself. At the hospital my cervix measured 2.7 (they like it above 3), so for 6 days i had the idea in my head that i was gonna lose the baby...crazy i know, but hey give me credit, ive been through ALOT and im hormonal right now!

So anyways i called my doctor yesterday and told the nurse i was having a "crazy pregnant lady moment". She talked to my doctor and they let me come in today for an u/s to check everything out.

Little Babe was fine, measured right on target with a heartrate of 163. The placenta looked like it moved to me but the tech said it could just be the angle she took the picture. Who knows. She also said it didnt look like it was my placenta that separated but the aminionic sac..which i guess is better??? The doctor will most likely call me tomorrow with the full report.

But for now im in bed resting away.

I have to say something though. some ppl think i worry too much (which, btw, id love to see how theyd act if they have gone through what i have) well, i was watching Inn Love with tori spelling and she went to the doctor after she took a bath b/c she thought she "cooked" the baby from the warm water!!!! now come on.....

14 weeks

So glad to be here. This has definately been a rough week but we are still holding strong. I had a scare today and i couldnt find little babes heartbeat but he just moved over like 2 inches - WHEW!

Ive had no active bleeding since yesterday morning. So i called Dr. M (my high -risk doc) and she said i can restart the Lovenox tonight! Ill feel so much better being on that but scared at the same time.

I did take a picture today but i cant find the cable to upload it so ill have to add it later. I think i still look the same. Just the belly is now turning to baby and not bloat. Ill be exciting when it looks more "pregnant" not "pudgey".

No appt. this week. Just gonna be laying here holding this little babe in nice and tight!

Keep us in your prayers.

bedrest...hmph

Its amazing how fast things can change...

Yesterday morning i woke up and noticed my stomach felt really hard. I thought it was just my uterus poking out. Then i got up and GUSH! I looked down and i was soaked in red blood. I hobbled over to pete and told him i was bleeding. I sat there in the dining room with blood pouring out of me. I had the phone in my hand to call the doctor but i couldnt remember the number. Pete ran out to the car to get it. I called and they told me to get to the hospital ASAP. So pete helped undress/dress me and cleaned me up as i fumbled with the doppler. My stomach was very tight but i didnt feel any cramping. As soon as i put the doppler to my belly i heard the heartbeat - 160. THANK GOD!

We were pretty quiet on the ride to the hospital and i was quite impressed on how calm i was.

When we got there it took 45 minutes for my doctor to come in. He did a quick u/s to check on Little Babe, he was bebooping all around with a nice strong heartbeat. But he couldnt find why i was bleeding. He checked my cervix and it was closed. PHEW. He ordered a "formal" u/s to try to find the source of the bleeding and to check gestational age (make sure there wasnt a lag in growth).

They took almost 2 hours until we got that and they wouldnt feed me until that was done for some reason, I was STARVING. So we get the formal u/s and Little Babe measures 14w2d (i was 13.4) so that was really good, heartbeat was 160. So LB could have cared less i was loosing blood like it was my job.

So we found out i had a low lying placenta and a subchorionic bleed. Dr. B put me on bedrest for 2 weeks. I bleed pretty good until about 2am, now its just brown spotting, THANK GOD!

They also took me off Lovenox until i have no bleeding for 24 hours. If nothing major happens by 3pm tomorrow, im gonna call and ask to start it again since i feel very nervous being off of it. Id also like another u/s to check on the bleeding but i dont know if they are going to do that. It seemed like Dr. B will just check it again at my "big" u/s on may 9th - ARGH - long ways away! But im sure if i call and ask for one, he'll give me one.

So time is standing still and im secretly scared to death (but very hopeful). Im so thankful i have my doppler, ive been checking the heatbeat every 3 hours.

Keep us in your thoughts!

2nd Trimester!!

Today im 13w3d! So the 2T starts today. Im super psyched but still nervous. But this is a HUGE hurdle!!

Im feeling alot better. Im still having a tough time sleeping, last night i slept for 5 hours straight! I woke up at 530am and felt great! But i have to work tonight so i need to take a nap beforehand. The queasiness is basically gone but the hunger is returning. I need to eat every 3 hours. Im trying my hardest to eat well. I really dont want to gain too much weight since i had 20 pounds to lose pre-pregnancy.

I had my first OB appt today. He did a quick u/s just to see the heartbeat and make sure everything looks good. He said im in the "normal" category and it looks like im gonna be pretty "boring" - FINE BY ME!!

Little babe was pretty much just hanging out. I could see the heart beating away so that relieved me (even though i checked it right before we left LOL). LB did measure a tad on the smaller side (5 days behind) but Dr. B said he was scrunched up and the abdominal u/s isnt as accurate. Also after 12 weeks CRL isnt accurate anymore, so he told me not to worry but im secretly freaking out. I checked LBs heartbeat again and its still going strong at 160-170, thats more important.

I wasnt going to bring out my plan for 38 week induction, but he did! He said once 35 weeks hits he'll start doing internals and once i start dialating its induction time!! So hes hoping 37 weeks! WOO-HOO! But my sister didnt start dialating until she was 40 weeks so i dont know what will happen if that happens, probably c-section. He def wants me not to go past 38 weeks so we'll see!!

I also start getting growth u/s @ 24weeks and then every 4 weeks after that! No complaints there! Ill also start getting BPP at 35 weeks i think he said (maybe earlier).

So i go back 4/24 to OB med, then 5/1 for my 17 week appt. Then May 9th is the "big" us, when we will find out what we are having!

a little late.12 week belly pic and my puppies

SADIE- caught looking out the window for "KITTIES!"

NALA - stole petes hat and always has to have a bone nearby :)

OK heres the belly pics:

This is exactly 12 weeks in the morning when my belly isnt poking out as much. So i call this my "real" belly.

IM HUGE! This is at night. For some reason my belly gets bigger at night (this was taken 12w3d)

12 weeks!

It all depends on where you read, but im either in the 2T today, next week or the start of 14 weeks...confusing! Im counting 13 weeks as the 2T so one week to go!

Im feeling pretty good. Nights have been the worst. And im still waking up late at night and having a tough time falling back to sleep. I also am having the wonderful symptom of extra sliva...i never knew this was a symptom until i read about it...now i know why im spitting when i talk! lol

I did take a pic today but i had to do it myself, im going to have pete take one tomorrow.

So no appts this week, i think this is the first time since July i havent had a weekly appy SOMEWHERE!

Well im off for my daily 3 mile walk. Im trying to only gain 20 pounds during this pregnancy. So far ive gained 2-3 pounds.

i GRADUATED!!!

Today was my last RE appt.!!!

Little Babe is growing strong , measuring one day ahead and his HB ws 156-160. He was SO BIG! This all still feels so surreal!

I also filled out my OB paperwork and got my prenatal labs drawn. I go 4/3 for my first OB appt. I CANNOT wait!

My last PIO injection was yesterday! My bum already feels better!

AND i got my doppler a few days ago so i can listen to his HB whenever i want! YAY!

Its a good day!

11 week update!

I didnt get to post this weekend b/c we were going, going, going!

Saturdy Pete and i did a bunch of errands & went to the Home Show and to Cheesecke Factory. It was a really good day :)

Then yesterday was our family dinner, my family and petes family all got together and Sage even came! Shes just so stinking cute!! :) We had prime rib and everything came out perfect.

So pregnancy wise things are still the same (YAY!) Im still excruiciatingly exhausted and could sleep all day if i could! The queasiness comes and goes, smells are still gettting to me (beer and raw seafood are the WORST! and the weirdest one is cleaning products!) My breasts are a little fuller and are painful if someone pushes on them, but normally feel fine. My intestines still are on vacation which is NOT helping the bloating situation i got going on!

I ordered a doppler on thursday and i think i may get it today!! i hope i can find the heartbeat!! My last weekly u/s is wednesday and im hoping curry can come b/c its my last one until the "big" one.

So thats it, ill update on wednesday! :)

10.6 and 5 week belly pictures

Ok everyone better be proud i FINALLY figured out how to upload pictures!! These first pictures are from today & 10 week and 6 days. I actually feel like the bloating is calming down. I have now gained one pound.

This is 5 weeks with a non-IVF pregnancy so the "extreme" bloating" is not present. Now i just have to figure out how to scan my u/s pictures!!

Little Babe update!

U/s was amazing. HB 168 measured 10w 5d (one day ahead!).

We saw the legs, arms (no longer "buds"), the brain, teeth? (hey thats what the doctor said lol), the umbilical cord pulsating, his little alien face. He was moving all over and got really pissed when i poked him to move some when he was quiet hehe :)

The doctor was going to keep me on the PIO shots until next week but i told her i just couldnt do it anymore! It is KILLING me now! So we start weaning on Saturday and ill take my last shot on tuesday @ 11w3d...oh it will be a JOYOUS day!!!

She was much better today besides the fact she called my bump - obesity! NICE HUH?

Whatever! Little babe is doing faboulous and thats all the counts! :)

Little Babe update!

U/s was amazing. HB 168 measured 10w 5d (one day ahead!).

We saw the legs, arms (no longer "buds"), the brain, teeth? (hey thats what the doctor said lol), the umbilical cord pulsating, his little alien face. He was moving all over and got really pissed when i poked him to move some when he was quiet hehe :)

The doctor was going to keep me on the PIO shots until next week but i told her i just couldnt do it anymore! It is KILLING me now! So we start weaning on Saturday and ill take my last shot on tuesday @ 11w3d...oh it will be a JOYOUS day!!!

She was much better today besides the fact she called my bump - obesity! NICE HUH?

Whatever! Little babe is doing faboulous and thats all the counts! :)

10 weeks!

DOUBLE DIGITS!!!

Im so psyched to be 10 weeks! I never thought this would happen, but each week i keep moving along...i still cant believe it!

My symptoms seem to be lessening a bit. Im still queasy and tired. The symptom that reared its ugly head this week was extreme moodiness. Like yesterday, i went and visited Curry and Sage, i was fine, no exhaustion, queasiness, some hunger but i have good control over that now. But on my way home i was very queasy and by the time i got home i wanted to bite someones head off. Its awful and i hate being that way!! At least i warn people and i they know its not "me" but SHEESH i was sensitive to begin with and now EVERYTHING bothers me! I hope this doesnt last for too much longer.

Work has been really tough to get through. By 5-6p (sometimes earlier) i feel like im not gonna make it. Makes for a VERY long night!! I barely walk in the door and im about to zonk out! But lately ive been waking up between 2-4a WIDE awake and takes forever to get back to sleep. I guessmy body is already getting me used to the babe. Itd be interesting to see if thats an active time for the babe once it starts moving!

Im still on the PIO shots, i was hoping today was going the day to start weaning off of them but Dr. P wants to wait until next week. So hopefully on Wed. ill find out how the weaning will work. My u/s this week is at 3pm, late but at least i get one. Then the following week is most likely my last one. As much as i like these weekly appointments, im ready to be a "normal" pregnant person. Most patients are released to their OBs by now but with my history im staying until 12 weeks. Its OK, i really like Dr. P(even though she kinda pissed me off this week).

Pete has been great! I think now that we are past "the critical" stage hes starting to warm up to this, which makes me VERY happy! He sings to the babe and kisses my belly, its very cute! He understands i dont have the energy i wish i had, which is good.

We took another belly pic today. I look a LITTLE different but it could just be the pants im wearing. Ill post the pics once i figure out how too.

But is anyone even reading this to see them? I get so many hits but no comments, whats up with that?

9.5 u/s and frustration

This could be 2 posts but im too tired to do that!

First, babe is doing wonderfully! Measuring right on track with a heartrate of 172. He (just my feeling) was doing a little jig, it was so cool!! We go back the next 2 wednesdays for u/s and then im kicked out to Dr. B (FINALLY!) Im still on the PIO and will start weaning off of it next week (11 weeks).

Now for my vent. Now im starting to think its just me or that i really dont have ANYONE who understands what im going through (this is what im leaning towards). Yesterday i asked (what i thought) was normal questions to the doctor. Instead of getting reassuring answers, i got "calm down and realx" "dont worry about it"," wow, youve got a long way to go to be this worried." Frankly, it PISSED me off!!

Ive only known about losing pregnancies so, yes, im PETRIFIED on occasions. Ive never been 9.5 weeks pregnant so i dont know what "normal" sensations are! I feel the doctor is there to help you along and calm you, not PISS you off and make you feel like your dumb.

The past week ive been overly sensitive, so maybe it IS me, but it still irritated me! Its like i feel it was OK to be scared from 4-8weeks but not its time to buckle up and relax....ill let you know how that goes!

9 weeks!

i get so excited for Saturdays!!

Ive actually been feeling OK for the past 2 days, which freaks me out, but its nice to have a reprieve. But really, it hasnt been that bad. I think i slept away the past 3 weeks. My queasiness is pretty constant on the days it comes, the dizziness is still here but not as bad (the protein must be helping), the bloating is still in full force but with softball sized ovaries and the progesterone, i guess its what to be expected. My smell is still wicked strong and cooking dinner is a feat but no puking. Ive had times where i WISH i could but nothing.

I think i might be feeling alittle better b/c i just had 4 days off of work, its been nice and ive been able to rest. Or it could be b/c im just getting used to things.

Last night i had to go get some maternity jeans. The bloating and the lovenox bruises where making it impossible to be comfortable. It will be nice when i actually need them for a baby belly :) Its weird how the sizes run S, M, L, ect. But they are super comfy.

Wed. is my next u/s and i hope it goes well. I dont know what im gonna do when i cant see the babe every week, its so cool to see the development happen!

8 week us and vent about ppl who dont GET it!

Most importantly our babe is doing fabulous!! It look like a little baby now. We saw the head, ears, legs, hands, belly and the heart pumping away. The babe even MOVED!! So cool!!

The appointment was def. educational. First i found out that the stitch i have never dissolved!! Its been causing some pinching so Dr. P had to take it out because it was causing irritation. That hurt like a BITCH! There was another piece but when she pulled on it...HOLY SHIT! So i told her to leave it be and see if it still bothers me, then we'll take care of it.

Then she informs me i have a yeast injection!?!? I didnt even KNOW!

Then she tells me not to eat carbs to help with my queasiness/dizziness. The carbs, i guess, cause your blood sugar to drop or doesnt keep it stable for a long period of time so that why i feel shitty every hour. So she said PROTEIN is best! Now why does everyone tell you to eat saltines if they make matters worse! So now i have peanut butter crackers, trail mix, and cheese by my side to ease the pukey feelings.

So we are going back next wednesday and the following one for more u/s's. It doesnt seem like i get released back to Dr. B until week 12 but thats OK, these u/s's are a godsend, even though i get SO NERVOUS beforehand.

Speaking of nervous, heres my vent! Now ive been through ALOT and i know that all of this can be ripped away in an instant. I know full well about missed m/c so i get scared before my u/s's. My mother came with me and the WHOLE time shes telling me to "lighten up"...but the 6th time she said it i was about to SNAP!! Nobody can understnad my fears except for ME. So instead of disreguarding them or making them seem insignificant, be supportive and calming! GRR!

Another thing i didnt think would happen is pete is still very distant about this pregnancy. He is getting better. But he doesnt seem relieved when the u/s goes well like i do. He admitted last night he is still nervous, so am i but disreguarding the whole situation kinda makes me feel alone with this.

Ill just be so happy when this trimester is over and we move into the 2T. 4 more weeks...28 days..we can do it! :)