Plan #523

So injectables are out this month since Pete and i are going away for a wedding during the weekend of Ovulation (note the capital O for importance) and i need to be monitored. I didnt realize it was going to be super extensive so Dr. P upped my Clomid to 150mg (as per my suggestion b/c im a super PIA). Im going in Thursday for my baseline and start the Clomid tomorrow.

Im also throwing in acupuncture (again) this cycle. Alot of my friends/co-workers have been telling me about this lady for months so i figure id give it a try since one of my friends just went to her and got pregnant the first month after struggling for a bit. She even takes insurance which is a major plus! Acupuncture usual just feels like "more needles and appointments" but ill give it a shot, maybe ill like it this time. Ive also been doing chiropractic ajustments for 6 months and thats suppose to help.

I also do other crayz things because it MAY help...i drink lemon water (suppose to detoxify your body), i take a crapload of supplements fish oil, evening primrose, vitamin e...the normal baby aspirin, 100x more Folic Acid then the normal person, i switched my shampoos and conditioners, body wash all to organic also my facewash is organic now...ill move onto organic makeup at some point...my deoderant is organic. I buy organic milk, and fruits and veggies...Trader Joes is my new favorite store.

I Hope. I think positive. Every month i figure out my due date and i focus on that all month long. I think about how the season will be, how old jack will be, i even look at pajamas in Tagret and think "those would be cute the hospital"....Im crazy lol...or i call it HOPEFUL, DETERMINED, POSITIVE. I cant let mesyelf feel sorry for myself. Other people in the world have cancer or just lost a child, their husband, their job, house ect. I got a great husband, son, house, job, dogs, family and friends. Im not going to spend one minute complaining about what i DONT have when i have so much.

But that doesnt mean im not going to try like HELL to get what i want!

Day 1

Again. This. Sucks.

Yes, no, maybe?!

These are the questions in my head. I got the call yesterday that i definately ovulated. My progesterone was 15.3 (or was it 50, im going to check my labs today when i go to work).

I def. have symptoms. I noticed yesterday (5dpo) my montgomery tubercles are very prominent and i have a bunch of CM (some EW)...this morning (6dpo) i have some pulling on my right side just like i had with Jack and my last 2 pregnancies. Im bloated my boobs feel heavy and im tired and hungry. All these symptoms started yesterday with more pronounced today.

We'll see. I havent decided when ill test. Ill probably start around 10dpo, which is wednesday.

i never "make sense"

So for the past 8 days ive gone in for monitoring 6 times! Thats more then when i was doing IVF...the point of doing clomid was for things to be easier on me, sheesh!

Anyways my ovaries never showed a follicle bigger then 12mm. But i told the nurses about 3 days ago i started to get EWCM (an ovualtion sign) and that i was feeling alot of twinges on both sides, but still no follicles were growing. Well yesterday the nurse called me and said "You saw your ovaries, theres nothing there BUT your bloodwork indicates you are about to ovulate!....Torri, this just doesnt MAKE SENSE!"....HAHAH all i could do was laugh because this is the story of this journey! So the nurse told me to "have intercourse" yesterday and today.

The next step is for a progesterone check on friday. If that indicates ovulation ill start all my meds.

Im pretty sure this cycle is a bust but crazier things have happened!