24 Weeks!!!!

Had to throw in a pic of Jack fishing. My FIL gave him a fishing pole a few months back and he's been asking everyday to go. Pete took him a few weeks ago and as you can see, he loved it!

24 weeks!!!! YAYAYAY!!!! This is Viability week. If the twins were born now they have a chance at survival.... but they better stay in for another 13 weeks!! But its good to know "count" now.

This pic was taken on Easter so its a few day shy of 24 weeks but close enough.

Im actually feeling pretty good. Weeks 16-22 were tough bc of the sciatica,But thats calmed down so im doing more now. Im feeling more Braxton Hicks as time goes on. I get prob 5 good ones a day. I hate them, they scared the crap out of me!! My stretch marks from Jack are starting to get bigger and brighter. I noticed this around 20 weeks and now i have about an inch extension on them.

I went Monday ( 23.5) for a growth scan. Both babes weighted 1.3 pounds are are measuring 3 days behind. But thats ok with twins..as long as there isnt a huge gap between the 2 or they are in the 10th percentile. Everything else looked good so that was a huge relief! Ill go in for another scan in 4 weeks to check on them. Sam is now head down and Lily is breech. So all the pokes i get in my bladder and by my belly button is her. She puts her hands over her head like
Jack did. She also still has an anterior placenta so i dont feel her as strong as I do Sam. Sam gives good swift kicks and my whole belly moves when he's moving - which is alot. I wish i could feel Lily more :(

Christmas :)

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. We did :) This was the first year Jack "got it" so it was really exciting. On christmas even we went to my SIL's...i felt pretty crappy the hwole time but it was still fun to see everyone. That was the first time i took Zofran and it took 2 hours to kick in! Ever since i took it though i havent been as bad with the nausea. I had to work and it was crazy but whats what you get for being a nurse!

Christmas Jack was so excited. Pete the night before made cookies and put out oatmeal and carrots wit Jack (he videotaped for me). Jack all sorts of things...legos, moon dough, stinky garbage truck, imaginext spaceship, alphie, zhu zhu battle arena, crafts, weeble treehouse, clothes. He's been playing ever since!

Pregnancy wise im doing well. Im nauseous about 75% of the time but it doesnt seem as bad as last week..or maybe im just getting used to it. Eating has been a feat since i feel pretty gross and the smells really get to me. I still get some crampiness here and there and i had one night with some pretty bad round ligament pain. My bbs dont hurt but feel funny here and there. I look about 4 months pregnant but ive lost 4 pounds from not being able to eat alot. The exhuastion is starting to kick in. Between feeling queasy and tired, during my short bursts of normalcy i try to get alot done cause once im tired its all over!

One more week until the next u/s and im getting antsy!

Here we go, yet again

So i am on day 3 of stims. Im on 100units of Follistim which i feel is WAY too high since i was on 175 with my IVF and got 12-20 eggs! I go in tomorrow for a E2 check to make sure the dosage isnt too high. My ovaries are def. working. If i have too many follicles for plain ol' ovulation then im going to tell them to do IVF (why not, whats another cycle?) ...i am NOT wasting eggs. I prob wont do PGD with it though...thinking ahead of myself. We'll see what happens tomorrow.

Tomorrow...

is Jacks BIRTHDAY!!! My "baby" is 3!! I'm so exciting for tomorrow since he has been counting down his birthday for like 100 days lol. It all started when i told him id get him a toy he wanted for his birthday...so EVERYDAY he asks when his birthday is! We got him the Imaginect Bigfoot, and little thingslike stickers, coloring books a pillow pet, buzz lightyear costume, Toy story books, towels. My mom got him Toy Story on ICe tickets for tomorrow so he is super psyched. I cant wait to see him face tomorrow when he ses the presents and its finally his birthday!!

Tomorrow is also a reminder that my uterus DOES work!

I joined a message board online with women who are going through this hell too....of course i beat everyone with the number of losses i've had :( and most are in the 40's trying to have kids. Alot of ppl write to me and ask if ive been tested for immune stuff.

No i havent...the basics, yes but the 1000 dollar work-up...no. I dont see the need, my RE and my OB dont see the point either. If anythings comes back + im already on the meds. I dont feel comfortable with Intralipids...so heparin, BA, 4mg of Folic Acid, b complex, medrol, prednisone, vitamin e, EPO, Prog in Oil and PNV will have to do.

I really think PGD#2 loss was a true chemical or a ectopic since my shoulder killed as soon as i found out i was pregnant...the triplets, i think my body was like "hells no"..so im really, truly hoping the next pregnancy is a good one. Maybe the PGD did damage my embryos?! I really wish we knew but we dont...

If im not pregnant by Janurary i think i may do IVF again. I need this to be done with.

6dp5dt..and Jack :)

So im so bloated i look like im 5 months preggo. I dont know if its OHSS or the progesterone. All i know is im uncomfortable. I can breathe just fine so i know if it is OHSS its not severe. My "cramping" has been minimal the last fwe days, last night i felt some burning in my uterus, which was odd. My bbs are also the same....heres some TMI (but this is my dairy and i need to document everything)..my nips seem darker and my Montgomery tuberclues are bigger...i analyze everything lol. My shoulder hurts (again and this is irritating me cause i hope it doesnt meaan the pregnancy is in the tube.) My smell also seems a bit stronger.

Jack...
He had his 2 1/2 yr appt last week. He is now 27.6 pounds and 35 inches (both 25th percentile). He talking like crazy now. This past week everyday he is saying like 3 new words a day. He will repeat everything we say, which is so fun to watch. He even says "i love you" now! We started potty training about a week ago and he is doing very well. We've def had some accidents but for the most part i go through 1 maybe 2 pull ups a day. We went to the circus yesterday an he flipped out!! I think it was way too much stimulation for the little guybut i bought him a pop an he was fine after that (of course lol). We've also tried the Drive-Ins to see "how to train a dragon" which he was so excited about but by the time the movie started it was his bedtime and he just kept saying "i want to go hooomme!"...He is super into dinosaurs and dragons. He is sucha love and i cant imagine my life with this little guy!!

Im OK

How can i be sad when i have this awesome little boy. He (and Pete) keep me going. I know this works , it did before, it will again. We'll try again and hopefully that cycle will lead to pictures with 2 miraclesin them. :) Follow-up appt 11/25.

Jacks 2 year appt.

If your looking for an IVF update scroll down.

Pete and I took Jack to his 2 year well visit this week. He's 25.8 pounds and 34 1/2 inches! He shoot up from the 10th percentile in both areas to 25th and 50th respectively! He grew 4 inches and gained 4 1/2 pounds in 6 months!

He recieved the flu vaccine and the Hib. He also had to get his blood drawn. All of that was awful. I couldnt take off his band-aids for 2 days cause he'd freak if i touched his legs! poor thing...

His speech is very garbled when he tries to say a sentence so Dr. S said she'd sent out early intervention. Im pretty sure he's just fine. He stared saying UT-OH, thank you (well his version), done and his other words are becomng more understandable in just the past few days.

Jacks 2!!

Jack turned 2 on september 19th. We had a construction party theme. My neighbor and good friend, Tracey made an awesome dirt cake which was put into the back of a toy dump truck. I put oatmeal into a sandbox and put all of jack Wheel Pals in there with shovels such and i put drawing paper over 2 coffee tables and cut out little dump trucks for the kids to color. About 40 people and 10 kids came. It was chaos (since the party got moved into the house since it rained) but it was a great time :)

Jack is so much fun and everyday im so thankful for him. He's starting to talk more and more. Right now hes banging on the windown saying "HIIIIII" to the garbage truck. He says about 25 words and 2-3 word sentences. "Pop, Plllllllleasse" is his favorite lol. He loves cars, coloring, blues clues, jacks big music show, dora, the moose from nick jr., music (dancing!). I take him to Tumbles once a week for an art class which he loved but he's sick of it so we are going back to the regular gym class. His favorite is sliding down the slide and the obstacle courses, along with the zip line. He also loves being outside and going for walks around the neighborhood. He calls is juice his "boof". He loves to jump, give hugs, he hands you everything and if he's playing you have to do it with him. He's a good sharer and is constantly handing me his toys. The dogs are great with him. He bounces all over Nala and she could care less. Sadie more or less ignores him, lol. He's not very good at eating, but loves fruit, yogurt, french fries, hot dogs, and pizza..ohh and his pops! I buy those go gurt yogurts and freeze them :) Hes very social and is always saying "Hiiii" to people. He loves talking on the phone too. he just figured out how to undress himslef so thats been interesting! He naps in the morning 10-12 and sleeps from 8p-7a.

He's a great kid :) <3

Im still working 3-11, 24 hours a week. Its good hours since i dont miss too muc while im gone. My mother, FIL and Tracey watch him when im not here. Next sept im going to look into a preschool type program for him for 2 or so days a week.

11 months

isnt he handsome?

Im sorry i havent kept up with this and ireally wish ihad but these few months have been tough. IN april pete broke his foot so for 3 and a half months i had no help with ANYTHING! He got the OK to start walking again last week so things are getting better aroud here.

Jack is getting so big and doing so much now. He started crawling well a few days after he turned 8 months and hes been on the go since! Now hes WALKING from toy to toy but nothing more then a few steps. He loves to walk back and forth from pete and i . He stands on his own and keep good balance for quite awhile. He has very good motor control and can prevent himself from falls by falling cautiously..its pretty funny to watch. He crawls up the stairs and loves climbing up on toys and the babygates. This kid is constantly figuring out something else to make me have a heart attack! He also found out how to flush the tiolet so my showers are very entertaining to him...lol.

He "talks". He says da-da, hi, mama and grunts alot and waves his hands when he wants something. If we say certain things he tries to repeat them. If we say "jack" he says JAH...he gets the first sound out...he does this with most words..esp if he hears them alot. He waves and says HAAII too...love it.

He was 17 1/2 pounds at 9 months...still tiny :)

Im still nursing and he showing no real signs of stopping. Which is OK right now but in a few months im hoping itll end. He nurses about 4 times a day (with a few snacks inbetween just to make sure its still there). Im trying not to worry about it too much. Plus im finally starting to lose weight froom doing it so im using it to my advantage!! He also eats what we eat and does very well. At first he gagged abit and scared the crap outta me but now he only gags if he shoves food in his mouth too quick. He has 6 teeth (teething sucks, BTW....he doesnt sleep wen he teeth nd it not fun for a few weeks...motrin is my friend).

so thats that. I cant believe he's almost one. I cannot begin to tell you how much fun i have with this little boy. I never knew love like this existed and it only gets stronger!

8 months

OK im alil late with this but thats OK :)

Lil man is doing great!

Hes been crawling backwards for a few weeks now. Hes VERY close to moving forward, its only a matter of time. He gets so frustrated that he cant seem to figure it out that he yells and gives this mad look...we cant help but laugh at him!

He's finally mastered sitting up from laying down...hes been working on that for awhile now.

He is SO curious! Hell notice something across the room and HAVE to go see it..since he cant walk yet ill help him over to it (by holding onto his hands and he walks...he LOVES doing this...and would do it all day if mommys back would allow it!) once he get over to the object he shouts with glee! too cute!!

He stands by holding onto something for quite awhile and love the perspective and gets all excited when he's doing it.

I have a very strong feeling he wont last long with craling, i think once he figures it all out he'll be running all around.

he has his bottom 2 teeth and his top 2 are breaking through as we speak.

he hasnt slept through the night since 6 months and im tired! i dont know if its teething, being attached or pete thinks hes having nightmares of not crawling yet! lol

we are still nursing and hes showing no signs of wanting to stop. I got a period last month so i guess im fertile again..we'll see what happens with that.

jack hates fruit and im lucky if i can get him to take 5 bites of breakfast. He does fairly well with veggies and LOVES his meat dinners. He eats earths best organic baby food and loves it. Im still nervous about giving him finger foods since he choked on some a few weeks back, im too scared to try again. I know i need to though.

he loves the ABC's and stop crying as soon as i sign it to him.

he HATES getting his diaper changed or getting dressed, hes such a squirm that i do the majority of it on the ground now.

Pete broke his foot 7 weeks ago and is still in a cast...it hasnt been fun!! i give single moms props b/c he cant do anything for him!

7 months old

its 1am and i just got home from work so if this makes no sense, im sorry in advance :)

Jack is SO good :) He is such a happy baby! I miss him so much when im away from him. I hate that i come home from work and hes sleeping, ijust want to spend time with him all the time.

He's rolling all around, sitting up, he tries like hell to sit up from laying down, he LAUGHS and SQUEALS, oh its so funny! He's still a big "talker". He loves the remote, phone, laptop, my keys...everything he cant have..he'll have 10 toys in front of him but still reaches for the phone, lil bugger!! He is such an explorer..and such a "boy" already. He loves going outside and sitting on the ground and feeling the grass. He always wants me to place him down so he can see whats around him. I have a feeling im gonna be in big trouble once he starts moving more. He reaches out for pete and i..he also knows our voices. Its the best feeling when he doesnt know im in the room and i talk and he turns towards me and stretches out his hands...makes my heart melt! He loves to be sung too and just LAUGHS at us. He's looking like sucha little boy know!! I have some pics that ill have to post soon.

THings around here are good. I still hate going to work. I really do love my job but i just hate going. Pete broke his leg this past saturday so its been tough finding someone to come down until jack falls asleep (he cant bear any weight on the foot and hes on crutches so he cant so ANYTHING). So these next 6 weeks are going to be tough but we'll make it through.

Im still nursing. Jack has 2 teeth now (one broke through about 2 weeks ago and the other bottom one broke the other day) and he bites here and there. It doent hurt as much as i thought it would. He's taking to the baby food much better and eats a whole 2nd food jar for lunch and dinner. Breakfast is just nursing and maybe some fruit..he'd rather just nurse in the mornings. And i gotta say this whole "losing weight is easy while nursing" is bull crap! If i went to the gym and burned 500 calories a day for the past 7 months id be a size 2! Im stuck at my prepreggo weight (which im not complaining about but COME ON!!) I cant get the dam scale to move. I started walking 5 miles a day (jack naps in the stroller) and im TRYING to eat better...but im always hungry b/c of the nursing...i need to work on making the right decisions..

So thats it...i just love being a mom!!

6 mo appt.

Jack is still a peanut at 16 pounds and he's 25 1/2 inches, both in the 25th percentile. He recieved 2 vaccines and i go back in a month to get some other (with all the media about autism and vaccines i dont want to give him so many at once.)

So things are good. We can start feeding him baby food 3 times a day but i think im going to stick with the 2 times still since i want to keep my milk supply up.

Little story. Last night jack got woken up by the fire alarm (another story in itself) and pete picked him up and he still was screaming so i took him and he completely stopped..this is a moment i longed for when i wanted a baby so bad!

6 months!!

I cannot believe Jack is 6 months. He is gettng so big. We go tuesday for his check up so i dont know his stats just yet but im guessing he's about 17 pounds. He is so fun now. Pete and i were talking the other day on how hard the first few months were and how much you really dont realize how hard they are until they are over!

Jakc is such a happy baby. He babbles so much and sings to himself, it so freeking cute. He goes crazy when he sees himself in the mirror esp if you go close and far away, then close again. He sits up all by himself now (hes been doing this for about 3 weeks now but can now do it without us really protecting him. Changing him is an olympic event now he squirms and rolls all over the place. Hes teething but no teeth yet which im in no rush for since im terrified of getting bitten! He loves the dogs and anything with texture. He has to chew on everything. He loves bananas and carrots. I recently started giving him the mesh thing with a banana in it and he loves it. He reaches out for us and plays with our faces. Hes very mellow and super fun. Id have a gaggle of kids if i could.

Work still is hard to go too. But i see it all in a different light. Like tonight i took care of IVF twins so i had alot in common with the patent. One of the babes wee in NICU and she was upset about it. I totally understand she went through, not just the getting pregnant, being pregnant but having to deal with walking down the hall and everyone gooing over a baby and your inst with you. I think it all makes me a better nurse... But it was so busy tonight i didnt have time to pump and i was almost in tears on my way home...10 hours with no relief! OUCH!!!

SO thats about it. Jack is great and i love him to pieces.

5 month update.

Im so horrible at keeping this up and im sure lots of people have given up checking to see if ive updated!

Jack is great. You dont realize how tough the first few months are until its over! His personality is really started to shine through. Hes a big "talker" and babbles constantly. He smiles and gets all excited when people he knows walks into the room. He's a huge explorer and always is grabbing for things and loves to feel textures. He rubs his head when hes tired and slams his face into my chest when hes hungry. He "sings" himself to sleep. Hes rolling over both ways and i find him across the room sometimes. He loves his exersaucer. He sleeps through the night (has been for awhile). We tried to put him in his crib but the monitor wasnt picking up his movements so the alarm kept going off and since i cant sleep with the monitor on he's back in the pack and play by the bed.
I cannot explain in words how much i love this baby!

Work is going well. I still hate leaving him but its nice to have money again!

His RSV took abut 3 weeks to go away but he didnt get as bad as the horror stories you here about it, so i guess nursing does help.

And yes im still nursing. I pump while im work and that sucks (literally) but i love nursing, the bond that we have b/c of it is amazing. I do bring pumped milk out in public now or when im going to a friends b/c its easier since jack still likes to nurse for an hour at a time and with the bottle its all about business.

Hes teething, but nothing has popped through yet. Im in no hurry for the teeth to come!!

RSV! :(

My lil man is sick! It started saturday. He's been coughing for alil bit but there was nothing to it, he was just coughing cause he learned how, lol. But on sat when he cough it was junky. By the next day he had a fever and was very congested, throwing up the whole nine yards! I was giving him tylenol and then motrin an hour later to try to get the fever down (it was close to 103)..i could only get it to 99. Poor thing. So we went to the pedi yesterday and he tested positive for RSV. I feel so bad for him hes having a hard time nursing, sleeping, everything he's just not comfortable. Theres nothing i can do either. We have the humidifer going, raised the head of his crib and im giving him tylenol (the ped said your not suppose to give motrin until 6 mos...opps).
So please keep Jack in yout throughts and pray for a speedy recovery!

4 mos. and doctor appt updates

I know im awful and havent updated in a month but to tell you the truth im just too engrossed in my lil man that i spend all my time with him and when hes sleeping im doing housework. I just wish i could bottle this time up b/c its just the best!

Jack is doing so good. He is cooing and babbling up a storm. The other day someone was saying ,Go patriots!, in his face and he responded with Gooooouuuu! Its was so funny. And if we hold him up to the mirror and say "heeelllooo" he comes back with 'hahowww" so stinking cute! Hes alot more active now and loves to play. I sit him in the boppy and just talk/sing to him and he just cracks up. He loves watching people. He loves his exersaucer and playmat and has fun int he jumperoo but cant really use it yet b/c he cant reach the ground. Hes putting EVERYTHING to his mouth now and loves to feel textures. He is a very happy baby, im very lucky. He sleeps through the night on most nights with a good 11 hour stretch. We have him on a bedtime routine and i think thats helped alot with getting him to sleep so well.

Im back to wrok and its OK. i missed everyone so its nice to see them. Im only 24 hours ( 3 days a week) so its not too bad. But i go to work to take care of babies so it doesnt give me too much of a "break"..plus im still nursing so when the babies scream i fill up and by the time i get to pump im one hurting mama!
Pete likes that im back to work b/c it gives him time to be with Jack. He has a blast with him and it gives pete a good idea on how much time he really requires.

Jack had 2 appts this week. His followup for his development was yesterday. The doctor said he is just FINE! there are no indications that he suffered any repercussions from his traumatic birth! Thank goodness. She even said he's advanced in some areas..go buddy! :) She also said that she finds that babies who have no issues with eating usually do just fine and Jack latched right on and had no problems with the bottle either so thats a good sign. He'll still be watched by our pedi but she said that most likely if anything were to show up there would be signs now..phew!

His 4 month appt was this week as well. Hes now 14.6 pounds and 24 inches. he got 2 shots and an oral vaccine. Pete came with me so he was the bad guy to hold him down for the shots. Jack did well with them but i felt so bad b/c before he got them he was laughing and having a grand time playing with the paper on the table :(

So thats about it. Ill post some pics soon to show him off :)

Dear Jack (3mos)

I came up with this clever idea to write letters to Jack throughout his life for numerous reasons...corny i know :)

Jack,
Its christmas time and i sit in the living room and when i look around at my surroundings its amazing how much youve changed my life. Last year your dad and i didnt put up a christmas tree or anything b/c we were so bummed we still didnt have a baby or were pregnant. Now there's a tree in the living room with sparkly lights with mounds of presents under the it. We also have stockings hung with presents pouring out of them. I feel a sense of peace and true happiness. I feel Christmas!

You of course have no idea what is going on, your just happy to be held and loved and im more then happy to give that to you.

Now your probably thinking "wow my mom is corny"..so true :) But i wanted to start these letters now so you have an idea how i feel about being a mom and your milestones at certain points.

When i was pregnant with you so many people told me it was going to change my life. I believed them but how could i really know HOW it was going to. Now i know...
my life now is more amazing. The love i have for you is astounding and really scary. There really is no words to explain what a baby does to your heart, especially your own.
My life is also much more scarier. I mean i have to mold you into a decent human being. Thats me and your dads job...no pressure...
I know have a purpose. YOU.

I look at you and your so vunerable right now and depend on me for everything. One day your going to grow up and not need me. That just breaks my heart! Im hoping youll always need me in some aspect, but i just want to hold onto this time for as long as i can. I wish i could just bottle it up. I hope i'll always remember your smells and the sound of your laughter and coos. They are just too precious.

My biggest fear is to lose you. I have awful thoughts that youll be taken away from me too soon. I really wish those thoughts will dissapear b/c its quite scary. I guess worry just comes with the territory, but im not always going to be able to protect you. I also fear you wont like me ( you wont when your a teen but thats how all kids are) but i just hope you like me. I hope you want to have lunch with me when your all grown up. I hope you come to me for advice. I hope you call me to just say hello. I hope your there for me like ill always be for you. I hope we get along and can laugh together. I hope im a "cool" mom and you feel comfortable with me and your dad enough so you can come to us for anything. I hope you know we'll never let you suffer and we always are looking for the best for you. I hope you know we'll love you no matter what and we will always be there for you.

Ona lighter note, this is how you are right now. Your sleeping through the night now. You come into bed with me in the morning and we nap for a few hours..this is my favorite time of day.You wake up all smiles. You love your changing table and smile and giggle when i change you. You love it when we talk to you, you talk back with coos and giggles. You hate getting dressed, especially putting on your shirts! You really enjoy your swing, you watch the dogs and us walk around. We sit in a chair next to it and talk to you and you just give the biggest smiles. You love looking in the mirror and watching us touch your face and talk. Youll mimic what we say, its really neat. You also enjoy the playmat and baby einstein toy we have. You know us ,pamma, mimi and pop-pop. You get a little fussy with auntie but she loves you to death (i wish we lived closer). Sage cant get enough of you and gives you kisses and hugs. She even tried to share a book with you the other day by throwing it in your face ( you poor thing, it was the first time you felt scared)..but she was just trying to share with you. I wonder what your relationship will be like.
You look like dad right now, so much its kinda scary! You get compliments on your beautiful blue eyes and how cute you are. You hate the carseat and will scream the whole ride. I need to use the snugli when we go shopping too. You love to look around and hate being confined.

Dad is a wonderful father and hes so excited to learn more about you. He cant wait to go to games with you, to teach you how to hunt and fish. You turn to his voice and smile big when he talks to you. He holds you and tells you how much he loves you all the time.

So motherhood...its true what people have told me about it, but i have no solid words to describe it. Im scared to death of it but i love it. If i could id have a house full of babies. But right now im enjoying our time together. I cant wait for the future to see who you become.
Merry Christmas Baby boy <3
Love,
Mommy

2 months old!

I cant believe! I also cant believe i have to go back to work in 5 weeks :( Im so sad about that!

Jack is doing really well. He was 11 pounds 5 ounces and 21 1/2 inches at his pedi appt. He went from being in the 10th percentile to the 50th with weight (still in 10th for height, but im short so no worries). He's becoming a chubba, he even has rolls on his hands! He also got 3 shots and one oral one. He handled the shots pretty well (screamed when he got them tho :( ) but i gave him tylenol throughout the day and he was OK. He is also developing perfectly fine...keep up the good work, buddy! :)

He smiles all the time now. Its by far the greatest...it really melts me everytime he does it. He reaches for toys and trys to grab them. He loves to feel textures...he is always rubbing my shirt when he nurses. He kicks his legs like crazy. He tracks his toys really well, and even goes diagonally. He "talks" all the time. He LOVES to look around...im constantly walking around the house with him b/c he hates to just stay still. Right now he's been in his swing for 10 minutes and thats a record! He also enjoys us talking to him, he fixates on our faces and smiles big when we make faces at him. He really likes his baths too...he kicks up a storm...i swear he'd stay in it all day if i let him.

His schedule is getting more predictable. He's been sleeping for a good 5 hour stretch in the beginning of the night 9-10 to 2-3. But then he's up again every 2 hours...but you gotta start somewhere, right? He is alert most of the day with catnaps here and there. Around 6 is when his fussy time begins and we give him a bath and play with him until 7 then i nurse him until he falls asleep which isnt until 9-10. Yes i nurse him pretty consistently during that time but he's mostly just using me as a pacifer. Ive tried EVERYTHING to get him to take the pacifer but he just wont. I dont know what petes gonna do when i go back to work! I work 3p-11p so hes gonna have to deal alone. Good thing its only 3 days a week!!

I hope everyone had a good turkey-day. We went to my in-laws...it was a very relaxing day.

Sorry for such a book but its rare i can update these days! I'll post some more pics soon!

Pictures!!!

my lil family :)

halloween and one of his first smiles! doesnt it just melt you?
cousins...sages 1st b-day!

1 mo. old

SMILE!!
1 mo. photo
super-cute!
dad kisses
in my swing

looking outside
first bath

1 month old!

Gotta be quick b/c i got a fussy baby right now!

Jack now weight 8 pounds 2 ounces and is 20 inches long! So he's gained lil over 2 and half pounds sincw his one week appt. and 2 inches! Go BUDDY! He still looks a lil jaundiced so we had to go to the hospital for a blood draw :( I havent heard anything so i hope all is well. She said it could be "breastmilk jaundice", so i may need to stop breastfeeding for a few days :( I hope not since i love doing it. He also has slight reflux so we need to elevate his bassinet and keep him upright for a half hour after feeds.

He nurses more frequently now, about every 2 hours and does one side at a time. The insurance co. took away my hospital grade pump yesterday so i cant pump anymore :( My sis gave me her pump but it hurts like a bitch - i dont know how she exclusively pumped for 4 mo. with this hoover!!

i wake up about 3x a night to nurse him. He has a fussy time from 8p-12a. He just wants to nurse, nurse, nurse...ive tried a pacifer but he gags on it, then spits up, thus he's hungry again. So speaking of that i gtg b/c he's screaming!

Boatload of pictures!

These were taken tonight. I wish i could post petes baby pics, b/c he looks just like him!

Last belly pics...this is us on our way to the hospital

Our first walk... he was about a week old

Look how tiny!
So sweet...
Chillin with my dad :)
chattin up a storm...

yeeesss?!...

Curry, Adam, Sage and Jack
Our Little Fam...
Relaxin on the Boppy
Sweet Sleepy baby..