So i saw Dr. P today and we went over my new plan. She was actually glad i came in to go back to IVF since this plan wasnt working.We are going to do IVF no PGD (1. b/c im a bit jaded by it now with back to back losses and 2. she doesnt think itll be covered and i dont have 6000 to throw down to pay for something thats not a sure thing).
Shes not super keen on me taking the prednisone but she going to continue the medrol for 4 days and then go to 5mg of prednisone to maintain the effects of the medrol but if i get pregnant it will increase to 10mg until a heartbeat is detected then we'll wean off of it.
We are going to do 3 weeks worth of Doxycycline b/c i have a history of endometritis (infection of the uterine lining) and my last antibiotic treatment was 8+ months ago so just to cover our bases.
We are going to push for a Day 5 transfer and put in 2 of the best. Pete and i do not want to put in more then 2 since we got pregnant with the triplets and thats not something we can handle.
My period is due next thursday so the ER will be in November.
She said i have a 2/3 chance of having another baby - thats a 66.6% chance....lets hope.
6 IVF cycles, 7 losses, a healthy son and now pregnant with TWINS! All honestly told so be warned!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
GRRR
So i went in for my u/s and i have one follicle on my RIGHT side... UG. I have no tube on my right side AND im spotting for some strange reason. The follicle was a 20, which means they are having me trigger tonight. Im only on CD 8! So basically this cycle is a bust.
Im calling tomorrow to get an appt with Dr. P to go over doing IVF again. Im so over only getting 1 follicle...i need to get this party started!
Now the next question... to PGD or no PGD...
Im calling tomorrow to get an appt with Dr. P to go over doing IVF again. Im so over only getting 1 follicle...i need to get this party started!
Now the next question... to PGD or no PGD...
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Here we go, yet again
So i am on day 3 of stims. Im on 100units of Follistim which i feel is WAY too high since i was on 175 with my IVF and got 12-20 eggs! I go in tomorrow for a E2 check to make sure the dosage isnt too high. My ovaries are def. working. If i have too many follicles for plain ol' ovulation then im going to tell them to do IVF (why not, whats another cycle?) ...i am NOT wasting eggs. I prob wont do PGD with it though...thinking ahead of myself. We'll see what happens tomorrow.
Tomorrow...
is Jacks BIRTHDAY!!! My "baby" is 3!! I'm so exciting for tomorrow since he has been counting down his birthday for like 100 days lol. It all started when i told him id get him a toy he wanted for his birthday...so EVERYDAY he asks when his birthday is! We got him the Imaginect Bigfoot, and little thingslike stickers, coloring books a pillow pet, buzz lightyear costume, Toy story books, towels. My mom got him Toy Story on ICe tickets for tomorrow so he is super psyched. I cant wait to see him face tomorrow when he ses the presents and its finally his birthday!!
Tomorrow is also a reminder that my uterus DOES work!
I joined a message board online with women who are going through this hell too....of course i beat everyone with the number of losses i've had :( and most are in the 40's trying to have kids. Alot of ppl write to me and ask if ive been tested for immune stuff.
No i havent...the basics, yes but the 1000 dollar work-up...no. I dont see the need, my RE and my OB dont see the point either. If anythings comes back + im already on the meds. I dont feel comfortable with Intralipids...so heparin, BA, 4mg of Folic Acid, b complex, medrol, prednisone, vitamin e, EPO, Prog in Oil and PNV will have to do.
I really think PGD#2 loss was a true chemical or a ectopic since my shoulder killed as soon as i found out i was pregnant...the triplets, i think my body was like "hells no"..so im really, truly hoping the next pregnancy is a good one. Maybe the PGD did damage my embryos?! I really wish we knew but we dont...
If im not pregnant by Janurary i think i may do IVF again. I need this to be done with.
Tomorrow...
is Jacks BIRTHDAY!!! My "baby" is 3!! I'm so exciting for tomorrow since he has been counting down his birthday for like 100 days lol. It all started when i told him id get him a toy he wanted for his birthday...so EVERYDAY he asks when his birthday is! We got him the Imaginect Bigfoot, and little thingslike stickers, coloring books a pillow pet, buzz lightyear costume, Toy story books, towels. My mom got him Toy Story on ICe tickets for tomorrow so he is super psyched. I cant wait to see him face tomorrow when he ses the presents and its finally his birthday!!
Tomorrow is also a reminder that my uterus DOES work!
I joined a message board online with women who are going through this hell too....of course i beat everyone with the number of losses i've had :( and most are in the 40's trying to have kids. Alot of ppl write to me and ask if ive been tested for immune stuff.
No i havent...the basics, yes but the 1000 dollar work-up...no. I dont see the need, my RE and my OB dont see the point either. If anythings comes back + im already on the meds. I dont feel comfortable with Intralipids...so heparin, BA, 4mg of Folic Acid, b complex, medrol, prednisone, vitamin e, EPO, Prog in Oil and PNV will have to do.
I really think PGD#2 loss was a true chemical or a ectopic since my shoulder killed as soon as i found out i was pregnant...the triplets, i think my body was like "hells no"..so im really, truly hoping the next pregnancy is a good one. Maybe the PGD did damage my embryos?! I really wish we knew but we dont...
If im not pregnant by Janurary i think i may do IVF again. I need this to be done with.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Sad
Maybe its cause im PMSing but i am just soo sad today. Its not only sadness, but frustration, fear, and lonliness...
What if this never happens again? Ive always wanted a big family (3 kids) and with all this bullshit I'm OK with 2. I just never thought this was going to be so hard the 2nd time around. I thought i d a few IVF cycles, get pregnant and move on with my life....But here i am one year later, 3 IVF cycles, a chemical pregnancy and a loss of triplets and 3 Clomid cycles under my belt...the only thing i have to show for what I've gone through is a broken heart.
I search high and low on the internet for some kind of inspirational stories but i may find one out of 100. I know my own story is inspiration but i need more at this moment. I'm trying so hard to keep myself afloat and be happy but today I'm tired and I'm sad...This is NOT FAIR and I'm OVER IT. "Everything happens for a reason", "Relax and it will happen", "but you have Jack.."....I want to tell everyone to SHUT THE FUCK UP....just give me a hug and say "this sucks and im sorry!"
I know ill be OK b/c 90% of the time, i am. But today im not OK im irritated at the world..
I asked Pete about doing IUI this month with the Follistim but he said "why since my sperm is fine..." Which is true. My "day one" will most likely be tomorrow. SO we'll get the ball rolling again soon. Ill def be doing Follistim - just need to make sure they will allow timed intercourse with it.
What if this never happens again? Ive always wanted a big family (3 kids) and with all this bullshit I'm OK with 2. I just never thought this was going to be so hard the 2nd time around. I thought i d a few IVF cycles, get pregnant and move on with my life....But here i am one year later, 3 IVF cycles, a chemical pregnancy and a loss of triplets and 3 Clomid cycles under my belt...the only thing i have to show for what I've gone through is a broken heart.
I search high and low on the internet for some kind of inspirational stories but i may find one out of 100. I know my own story is inspiration but i need more at this moment. I'm trying so hard to keep myself afloat and be happy but today I'm tired and I'm sad...This is NOT FAIR and I'm OVER IT. "Everything happens for a reason", "Relax and it will happen", "but you have Jack.."....I want to tell everyone to SHUT THE FUCK UP....just give me a hug and say "this sucks and im sorry!"
I know ill be OK b/c 90% of the time, i am. But today im not OK im irritated at the world..
I asked Pete about doing IUI this month with the Follistim but he said "why since my sperm is fine..." Which is true. My "day one" will most likely be tomorrow. SO we'll get the ball rolling again soon. Ill def be doing Follistim - just need to make sure they will allow timed intercourse with it.
Friday, September 10, 2010
UG!
Negative at 12dpo. WTF!
I could write for days about how much this is starting to piss me off, but im sure you already know... I know this is only our 3rd month trying on our own but its never taken us this long to get pregnant. Im just glad it not a misscarriage, thats what i keep saying. When this happens again it needs to be PERFECT!
Going to move onto Follistim this cycle and hope for more then one egg.
I could write for days about how much this is starting to piss me off, but im sure you already know... I know this is only our 3rd month trying on our own but its never taken us this long to get pregnant. Im just glad it not a misscarriage, thats what i keep saying. When this happens again it needs to be PERFECT!
Going to move onto Follistim this cycle and hope for more then one egg.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
11 dpo
Sorry for the lack of updates but there really isnt one. I really dont have many symptoms. Which i dont know what to think about since theres months were i have a gamete of them and im not pregnant. But ill list out the ones i have just for the fun of it. Bloating, mont. tuburcles, blue veins, irritabe, burning BB's.
Im 11 dpo today, i havent taken a test yet. Im going to Acupuncture today and hoping she feels my pulse and says she think im pregnant. If so ill prob take a test in the morning.
Im really not looking forward to doing this this again if im not. But i have no choice lol.
Im 11 dpo today, i havent taken a test yet. Im going to Acupuncture today and hoping she feels my pulse and says she think im pregnant. If so ill prob take a test in the morning.
Im really not looking forward to doing this this again if im not. But i have no choice lol.
Friday, September 03, 2010
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
2 in 1
So Acupuncture:
I REALLY like the lady im going to now, by far the best one (out of 4 ive tried). She told me not to eat/drink anything cold (which is not easy btw), dont pick up Jack (also, hard) eat alot of protein, and put warmth on my feet. Im seeing her once a week and she says this can help. I sure hope so!
Fertility:
Last thursday on day 10 i went in for my u/s. I was hoping for 3 follicles since i took 150mg of Clomid. Well i didnt get 3, i got 1 and it was on my left side (thats 3 months in a row with follies on my left side!) So it only takes one. The follicle was 28.5 and they said i would def be ovulating in the next couple days. Pete and i went to NY the next day for a wedding so we had the whole weekend to ourselves! So im hoping we accomplished our goal! oh my e2 was 530ish (so im hoping there was another follies hiding behind the big one).
Today i am 3dpo and ever since Sunday ive been sick with a slight cold/fever. Im really hoping this doesnt hurt anything. Today i started feeling some slight crampiness but i know its way too soon...Fingers crossed!
I REALLY like the lady im going to now, by far the best one (out of 4 ive tried). She told me not to eat/drink anything cold (which is not easy btw), dont pick up Jack (also, hard) eat alot of protein, and put warmth on my feet. Im seeing her once a week and she says this can help. I sure hope so!
Fertility:
Last thursday on day 10 i went in for my u/s. I was hoping for 3 follicles since i took 150mg of Clomid. Well i didnt get 3, i got 1 and it was on my left side (thats 3 months in a row with follies on my left side!) So it only takes one. The follicle was 28.5 and they said i would def be ovulating in the next couple days. Pete and i went to NY the next day for a wedding so we had the whole weekend to ourselves! So im hoping we accomplished our goal! oh my e2 was 530ish (so im hoping there was another follies hiding behind the big one).
Today i am 3dpo and ever since Sunday ive been sick with a slight cold/fever. Im really hoping this doesnt hurt anything. Today i started feeling some slight crampiness but i know its way too soon...Fingers crossed!
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