a very long overdue update!

Jack is doing very well. He is 16 months and such a riot! He's been walking since Sept 1st and i was the one who saw it! He says mommom, daddee, doggy,hewwo, nana (banana), dat (that). He loves to climb all over everything and is a very social baby, he loves everyone. His favorite shows are lomax, elmo and barney. He sleeps from 7pm to 5am then naps btw 8am-10pm to 10-12, then takes a small nap in the afternoon if im lucky.

Things have been going well. I weaned him completely on dec 19 and i believe i got pregnant that night. I found out on new years. But my betas were 32 and then 32 again 48 hours later. I knew from the start it wasnt going to end well. but then my betas starting rising appropriately. Everything was going well until 1/20. To make a very long story short i ended up with a ruptured ectopic pregnancy and had emergency surgery. I lost my right tube. Im pretty devastated and was hoping for a "normal" pregnancy. My OB basically told me to stick to ivf since that was my only successful pregnancy out of the 6 i've had.

So we are going to wait until Jack is 2 and try for another.

11 months

isnt he handsome?

Im sorry i havent kept up with this and ireally wish ihad but these few months have been tough. IN april pete broke his foot so for 3 and a half months i had no help with ANYTHING! He got the OK to start walking again last week so things are getting better aroud here.

Jack is getting so big and doing so much now. He started crawling well a few days after he turned 8 months and hes been on the go since! Now hes WALKING from toy to toy but nothing more then a few steps. He loves to walk back and forth from pete and i . He stands on his own and keep good balance for quite awhile. He has very good motor control and can prevent himself from falls by falling cautiously..its pretty funny to watch. He crawls up the stairs and loves climbing up on toys and the babygates. This kid is constantly figuring out something else to make me have a heart attack! He also found out how to flush the tiolet so my showers are very entertaining to him...lol.

He "talks". He says da-da, hi, mama and grunts alot and waves his hands when he wants something. If we say certain things he tries to repeat them. If we say "jack" he says JAH...he gets the first sound out...he does this with most words..esp if he hears them alot. He waves and says HAAII too...love it.

He was 17 1/2 pounds at 9 months...still tiny :)

Im still nursing and he showing no real signs of stopping. Which is OK right now but in a few months im hoping itll end. He nurses about 4 times a day (with a few snacks inbetween just to make sure its still there). Im trying not to worry about it too much. Plus im finally starting to lose weight froom doing it so im using it to my advantage!! He also eats what we eat and does very well. At first he gagged abit and scared the crap outta me but now he only gags if he shoves food in his mouth too quick. He has 6 teeth (teething sucks, BTW....he doesnt sleep wen he teeth nd it not fun for a few weeks...motrin is my friend).

so thats that. I cant believe he's almost one. I cannot begin to tell you how much fun i have with this little boy. I never knew love like this existed and it only gets stronger!

8 months

OK im alil late with this but thats OK :)

Lil man is doing great!

Hes been crawling backwards for a few weeks now. Hes VERY close to moving forward, its only a matter of time. He gets so frustrated that he cant seem to figure it out that he yells and gives this mad look...we cant help but laugh at him!

He's finally mastered sitting up from laying down...hes been working on that for awhile now.

He is SO curious! Hell notice something across the room and HAVE to go see it..since he cant walk yet ill help him over to it (by holding onto his hands and he walks...he LOVES doing this...and would do it all day if mommys back would allow it!) once he get over to the object he shouts with glee! too cute!!

He stands by holding onto something for quite awhile and love the perspective and gets all excited when he's doing it.

I have a very strong feeling he wont last long with craling, i think once he figures it all out he'll be running all around.

he has his bottom 2 teeth and his top 2 are breaking through as we speak.

he hasnt slept through the night since 6 months and im tired! i dont know if its teething, being attached or pete thinks hes having nightmares of not crawling yet! lol

we are still nursing and hes showing no signs of wanting to stop. I got a period last month so i guess im fertile again..we'll see what happens with that.

jack hates fruit and im lucky if i can get him to take 5 bites of breakfast. He does fairly well with veggies and LOVES his meat dinners. He eats earths best organic baby food and loves it. Im still nervous about giving him finger foods since he choked on some a few weeks back, im too scared to try again. I know i need to though.

he loves the ABC's and stop crying as soon as i sign it to him.

he HATES getting his diaper changed or getting dressed, hes such a squirm that i do the majority of it on the ground now.

Pete broke his foot 7 weeks ago and is still in a cast...it hasnt been fun!! i give single moms props b/c he cant do anything for him!

stuck in a moment

i did one of thses posts during jacks first few weeks of life i thought itd be a good idea to do another.

* Jack wakes up btw 5-6am (sleeps about 10 hours straight)
* my favorite part of the day is bringing him in bed with me until about 7-8am and he nurses while i doze on and off.
* i just stare at him and fall sleep by rubbing his head and listening to him eat.
*im usually awoken by him pinching my nose. he loves playing with my face..he grabs my lips and nose....sometimes that doesnt feel too good, since his nails are always sharp!
*he wakes up very happy and all smiles. The dogs greet us when i open the bedroom door and they get all excited and jack just watches them in amazement and squeals.
* i put jack in either his swing (which is very close to being packed up since hes getting too big for it) or exersaucer while i get my coffee ready and breakfast for pete and i. I also run around and try to straighten up the house before jack wants to eat again.
* Jack loves his exersaucer, playing the playard and his jumperoo. His favorite at the time he rolling on around and exploring EVERYTHING!! I sit and play with him until about 10am and then he eats again.
* i nurse him and i just love this time. As soon as i pick him up he slams his head into my chest and nuzzles in..its so sweet. His whole body relaxes once he latches on and he coos for the first couple minutes. Its an amazing time...not so amzing when he decides to bite my nipple though..OUCH!!
*hes a very lazy nurser and falls asleep between sides so it takes awhile for the feeding to be completed. But i dont mind since before i know it hes going to be running out of my arms, so im soaking this all in!
*Around 1 we go for a walk ..about 5 miles..and he protests for a bit but then he falls asleep for a good 45 minutes. He always wakes up during the last 15 minutes of the walk and screams!! My neighbors all look out their windows and give me funny looks, lol. SO needless to say i probably burn the most calories in those last 15 minutes from speed walking!
*jack loves Earths Best Organic baby food and he gets all excited when i strap him in his highchair. He waves his feet and arms and i can feed him fast enough. He hums when hes ready for another bit.
*he gets his bath around 6-7 and hes loves to splsh the water and bit on his toys. He also is very good at filling up the cup and pouring all over me! He would stay in that tub all day if i let him.
* when he gets dressed or gets his dipaer changed its an O;ympic event. He squirms all over the place and try his hardest to find something to play with. He takes the diapers the burp clothes...anything to play with while im changing him. I started giving him all the different pacifers while im changing him to distract him. He thinks they are toys and holds them up and stares at them...its too funny, but it helps me get the job done!
*he falls aslpp around 8pm. I nurse him to sleep which i know i shouldnt do but it works for us and thats all that matters. Since jack is on his side when he nurses he grabs onto his bumper in the crib and tryd to nurse off of that when i put him to bed. Its too cute!

7 months old

its 1am and i just got home from work so if this makes no sense, im sorry in advance :)

Jack is SO good :) He is such a happy baby! I miss him so much when im away from him. I hate that i come home from work and hes sleeping, ijust want to spend time with him all the time.

He's rolling all around, sitting up, he tries like hell to sit up from laying down, he LAUGHS and SQUEALS, oh its so funny! He's still a big "talker". He loves the remote, phone, laptop, my keys...everything he cant have..he'll have 10 toys in front of him but still reaches for the phone, lil bugger!! He is such an explorer..and such a "boy" already. He loves going outside and sitting on the ground and feeling the grass. He always wants me to place him down so he can see whats around him. I have a feeling im gonna be in big trouble once he starts moving more. He reaches out for pete and i..he also knows our voices. Its the best feeling when he doesnt know im in the room and i talk and he turns towards me and stretches out his hands...makes my heart melt! He loves to be sung too and just LAUGHS at us. He's looking like sucha little boy know!! I have some pics that ill have to post soon.

THings around here are good. I still hate going to work. I really do love my job but i just hate going. Pete broke his leg this past saturday so its been tough finding someone to come down until jack falls asleep (he cant bear any weight on the foot and hes on crutches so he cant so ANYTHING). So these next 6 weeks are going to be tough but we'll make it through.

Im still nursing. Jack has 2 teeth now (one broke through about 2 weeks ago and the other bottom one broke the other day) and he bites here and there. It doent hurt as much as i thought it would. He's taking to the baby food much better and eats a whole 2nd food jar for lunch and dinner. Breakfast is just nursing and maybe some fruit..he'd rather just nurse in the mornings. And i gotta say this whole "losing weight is easy while nursing" is bull crap! If i went to the gym and burned 500 calories a day for the past 7 months id be a size 2! Im stuck at my prepreggo weight (which im not complaining about but COME ON!!) I cant get the dam scale to move. I started walking 5 miles a day (jack naps in the stroller) and im TRYING to eat better...but im always hungry b/c of the nursing...i need to work on making the right decisions..

So thats it...i just love being a mom!!

6 mo appt.

Jack is still a peanut at 16 pounds and he's 25 1/2 inches, both in the 25th percentile. He recieved 2 vaccines and i go back in a month to get some other (with all the media about autism and vaccines i dont want to give him so many at once.)

So things are good. We can start feeding him baby food 3 times a day but i think im going to stick with the 2 times still since i want to keep my milk supply up.

Little story. Last night jack got woken up by the fire alarm (another story in itself) and pete picked him up and he still was screaming so i took him and he completely stopped..this is a moment i longed for when i wanted a baby so bad!

6 months!!

I cannot believe Jack is 6 months. He is gettng so big. We go tuesday for his check up so i dont know his stats just yet but im guessing he's about 17 pounds. He is so fun now. Pete and i were talking the other day on how hard the first few months were and how much you really dont realize how hard they are until they are over!

Jakc is such a happy baby. He babbles so much and sings to himself, it so freeking cute. He goes crazy when he sees himself in the mirror esp if you go close and far away, then close again. He sits up all by himself now (hes been doing this for about 3 weeks now but can now do it without us really protecting him. Changing him is an olympic event now he squirms and rolls all over the place. Hes teething but no teeth yet which im in no rush for since im terrified of getting bitten! He loves the dogs and anything with texture. He has to chew on everything. He loves bananas and carrots. I recently started giving him the mesh thing with a banana in it and he loves it. He reaches out for us and plays with our faces. Hes very mellow and super fun. Id have a gaggle of kids if i could.

Work still is hard to go too. But i see it all in a different light. Like tonight i took care of IVF twins so i had alot in common with the patent. One of the babes wee in NICU and she was upset about it. I totally understand she went through, not just the getting pregnant, being pregnant but having to deal with walking down the hall and everyone gooing over a baby and your inst with you. I think it all makes me a better nurse... But it was so busy tonight i didnt have time to pump and i was almost in tears on my way home...10 hours with no relief! OUCH!!!

SO thats about it. Jack is great and i love him to pieces.