Hurry Up and Wait...

For the past month and a half ive been trying not to pay attention to time. But now that things are going to start moving this week, the days are dragging! I cant wait for my baseline and start doing the stim drugs! I just want to get this moving!!!

Pete is gone for the week :( he left yesterday and i already miss him terribly.

Usually this week my mom comes down to spend time with me but between the 2 of us we have 6 dogs! Theres no way thats gonna work, so im all alone, oh well. It didnt help yesterday when our kitchen ceiling started LEAKING! I had to break a hole through the ceiling and i bunch of water came flying down! It was a mess!! Thank goodness it stopped raining!

Curry STILL has NOT had Saige! Im dying over here! She bought this inducing cream cheese and i think shes going to try it this morning, hopefully it works! I had a dream she had her so maybe it will be today?!

Also i switched acupuncturists. Im going to a woman now who actually talks English and EXPLAINS to me what shes doing! Its pretty cool. She said i have weak kidneys and the kidneys is what supports a pregnancy! Who knew? So we're fixing my kidneys! SHe also gave my a moxibustion (sp?) stick to do it myself at home and put "earballs" in my ears to help with stress and anxiety. Let me tell ya, i already feel a difference! I highly recommend acupuncture!!

Gotta go Sadie needs to poop!

small update with not much news

the only big thing that has happened since my last update is im off the BCPs and ive been on the Lupron for one week. The Lupron is treating me well, i only have clammy night sweats but not every night. AF is showing right on time, im spotting and very emotional and it should be full force on friday.

The RE office hasnt called yet with my Mycoplasma results, so im still waiting.

Curry is still pregnant, her due date is friday. We all are getting impatient, i cant wait to meet Saige!

I did it MYSELF!!!

This morning was my first Lupron shot and i was scared to DEATH!!! I was having nightmares ALL night! So i finally said "screw it" and got up to do it. Pete did my heparin shots with my last pregnancy b/c im such a baby (yes, i know, being a nurse i should have no problems, but its different when its YOU!) But im happy to report that it was ME to did the injection!!! It didnt even hurt! Im so excited to do my next one now HAHA!!

Today was a very eventful day. I had the consult with Dr. P to go over the PGD. She was SO NICE!! She actually talked TO us not AT us! She even went through my whole chart and suggested quite a few things that would help our odds.

First she thinks theres an implantation issue. So she suggests starting the Lovenox right after transfer. Im psyched about that, ive been TRYING to get someone to LISTEN to me about my ideas and was getting NOWHERE. But SHE brought it up!! So we are going to do that.

Second, sometimes ppl with RPL have too many sperm penetrate the egg causing the m/c's so we are doing ICSI (one single sperm is injected into the egg.)

Lastly, she doesnt think the mycoplasma is causing the m/c's but is concerned that i only have taken a 10 day course of antibiotics to treat the endometrtis i had back in march. So if the mycoplasma comes back + again then im going on a 21 course treatment. I had the option of getting another endo biopsy done but i just feel ive had too many instruments stuck up me and it will just cause things to get worse. Id rather just take the antibiotics.

So all in all it was a very good appt. I feel HOPE for the first time in months. She feels we have a chance. Im very curious to see where this will lead.

Onto normal life events. We got a black lab puppy on Saturday named Sadie - shes a sweet little thing. Nala is adapting very well to her. Ill post some pics soon.
Also Curry is still holding in. She went to the docs today and shes not dilating or effaced yet so they wont be inducing her :( She 39weeks on friday - that baby has got to come out!

Happy Birthday and other things

My birthday was good. 25. I know thats young but,it hit me hard, im no longer a "kid" ( i guess being married, owning a house, graduating college, and having a career didnt already tell me that! lol).

My Sonohystergram went well. My lining is smooth and no abnormalities were found THANK GOD! Not one person at the RE's office said happy birthday and i must have said my birth date 100 times! Whatever.

During the sonohystergram my cervix was very tender and they couldnt find my left ovary. Just 2 more things to worry about.

My in-laws and SIL and kids came over for dinner and my mom stayed the night. It was a good day all in all.

Yesterday i went in for my RE consult to go over my "plan". He's worried about my hyperstimulating b/c im so young. We are starting off with the standard 225 of Follistim but getting an early e2 level to make sure im going at an OK pace. But he'd rather me have alot of eggs then not enough.

So heres the dates:
10/18 start Lupron
10/22 last BCP (thank YOU!)
11/1 baseline u/s, e2
11/2 start stims
11/13 est ER
11/16 PGD anaylsis
11/18 ET

Petes sperm is "FANTASTIC". And Dr. F doesnt know for sure if the Mycoplasma is causing the m/c's. Im going in for a repeat test on the 18th so i should know the results by the 25th - pray for it to be negative!

Dr.F also reminded us to use "barrier" contraceptives, Pete asked if abstinance counted LOL. Sorry, but its hard for me to enjoy sex right now. I need emotional bonding rather then physical. Is that understandable??

onto work: Tonight i took care of Clomid TRIPLETS! Crazy! Oh, and btw my crackhead came back in a few days ago b/c she was hemmorraging and they may need to do a hysterectomy - GOOD!

And lastly, my sister has been contracting for days - so i may be an aunt this time next week!! YAY!

Birth Control Pills...

How weird is it that im taking birth control pills and using condoms right now? I took my first one yesterday and it brought me back to my teenage years were i DID NOT want a baby and now im taking them b/c I WANT ONE! Strange.

Its also strange that this whole IVF thing is now officially underway! Friday is my birthday and my mom is coming down, i think we may see a movie but i have a sonohystergram @ 2 and pete has his semen analysis that day too...Im turning 25 and it looks like the only action pete and i are getting is from doctors!

Last night i had another breakdown. Petes actions have been pissing me off lately. I have to be on him with every little thing that this entails (going to the psychiatrist,making the appt for the seman analysis, not wanting to talk about it or changing the subject ect..) It really just got to me yesterday and i just started crying at the dinner table. I HATE feeling like that. But, seriously, its so hard to stay positive EVERYDAY!

SO ive been reading others blogs...how do you get ppl to know about yours? People have links on the sides..how do i do that? I really want others to read this so i can more ppl going through this.

TIA!