No Good News! :(

Well i really suck but i just havent had the courage to post an update.

On Sat. Pete and i had sex - something we havent done in a LONG time. Afterwards i spotted very lightly and thought it was just from all the "activity" and plus i was on heparin and BA. But then Sunday i woke up to alot more than spotting, and cramps to boot :(

I was a mess on sunday. I didnt want to talk to ANYONE (besides pete and my dogs). But the phone kept ringing, everyone was concerned but i really just wanted to be left alone :(

My mom came down yesterday to go to my beta and get me out of the house, which was a def. liefsaver.

Pete and i talked. We know that this sucks - really bad. But at least it wasnt another m/c! We found answers for the m/c's during the cycle (which we didnt know if we were going to find). We now know what needs to be done.

You never know why things happen and theres gotta be a reason that this didnt work. Im putting all my energy to eat better, exercise and get ready for the next cycle.

We're going 12/12 for our f/u and to review my cycle. I also switched doctors to Dr. P b/c even though Dr. F is a smart man, he just didnt have the compassion or the flexibility im looking for (hes narrowminded and is set in his ways).

So thank you to all the wonderful ladies who are following my story. I hope ill have a happy outcome at some point to give hope to everyone going through this hell-ride.

Superstisoius

Today i am 5dp5dt. I do have symptoms to report but im not saying them b/c im way too scared to jinx myself.

My beta is the 27th and i am actually dreading it b/c im so scared if its negative!!!

PLEASE let this work!!!

Getting Better!

Well after 3 days of h*ll, im feeling better. I dont have my stamina back but im not gasping for air anymore, which is a HUGE plus! lol :)

The night i got home from the hospital i took 2 vicodin and slept - i woke up every 15 minutes to catch my breathe but the drugs allowed me to tolerate it. Sunday i couldnt say more than 2 words without feeling winded and i seriously wished they put a catheter in me b/c going to the bathroom took EVERYTHING out of me!

Last night i woke up and was scrunched down and didnt feel like i was dying so i laid all the way down and STILL felt alive! So this morning i woke up and feel 90% better! It was the stangest thing. It hit me hard and it went away pretty quicikly too! My weight is back to normal (i only gained 3 pounds) but im still slightly bloated.

Im really hoping my boys are nestling in nice and tight right now.

this will all be worth it!!

Always the 1%...

Well i overstimulated and just spent 7 hours in the ER. My ovaries are GIGANTIC and are touching eachother! Each are 5 inches across! I have a "considerable" amount of fluid in my abdomen and lungs and im having a heck of a time breathing.

They wanted to drain the fluid out of my lungs and stomach but nobody was on to do it so i got sent home to basically knock myself out and deal.

I go monday to get reevaluted. Its always something!

Of course im worried about the boys but im trying to remain calm under these circumstances...but its a little tough when you cant BREATHE!!

Sigh of Relief!!

Well i still feel like complete horse dung but the whole process is OVER. The progesterone is causing some major stomach issues and im having a hard time breathing while laying down. That could a sign of OHSS (overstimulation) so im trying to rest up and drink lots of fluids, but its no fun. But ill do whatever i need to to get my healthy babes :)

OK so its been awhile, lets see. Wednesday was AWFUL! I had to wait ALL day to get the PGD results. The doctor finally called around 630pm and told me we had 2 healthy petri-babies to transfer on thursday!! WOO-HOO!

I was so thrilled we had healthy ones. Now going into this IVF we did it to find answers for the 4 m/c's, we didnt know if we were going to find any, so its been pretty rough. But when i got that phone call i KNEW we found the reason i just didnt know what it was yet ( i only have 2 healthy babies out of 13!) Dr. P said shed call me in the am to let me know what time the transfer was going to be and give me the full report.

So 7am came yesterday and i found out WHY i was m/cing!!! Both pete and i have screwy sperm and eggs.

Heres the report: (its takes a minute to comprehend it)

X0 - Monosomy X and 18 - Means egg fertilized but pete didnt give an X or a Y,but the embie was damanged anyways (monosomy 18)

XY - normal - little boy!

XXX - polyploid - could be a dmaged egg or sperm (girl)

XX- Trisomy 16 (girl)

XY- normal - another BOY!

X0- again no X or Y from pete but the egg had trisomy 15
X0- again pete didnt give up the goods! - egg was normal

XX- another girl but monosomy 18 and trisomy 15

So we transferred 2 BOYS!! Can you believe it! My family is all girls and pete is all boys. I hope both stick! but ill be happy with one healthy baby :)

This has been a very tough couple weeks and now i just wait for my beta on the 27th. To tell you the truth im not even counting the days, im trying to stay calm and not think about it. BUt ive been talking to Chico and Horhay (petes NN for them! lol).

Thanks everyone for your support!!!!

Petri-Baby update

At this point our embies should be at the 2-4cell stage.

we got 6 4-cells and 2 - 2cells and 2 1 cells.

So its looks like we got 8 in the running as of now unless the other 2 split sometime today.

Im going to call tomorrow to see how many theyll send for PGD.

Thursday cant come soon enough!!

Petri-Babies!!

Out of the 15 eggs, 13 were able to be ICSI'd and 10 have fertilized so far! Tomorrow i call around 2 to see the progress. This is so nerve-wracking but, so far so good!!

Egg Retrieval went well

We got 15 eggs. Im happy with that number. We'll get the fertilization report tomorrow around noon. Im nervous about all of this. I just hope the next 4 days fly by.

Im really sore and needing the vicodin right when its due.

I gotta go lay back down.

Trigger Happy!

Im triggering tonight @ 9pm and going in for egg retrieval on saturday @ 7:45am!!

I cant BELIEVE this!! WOW!

The Eggs keep on coming!

Todays u/s revealed 22 eggs!! Thats 6 more overnight!! I wonder if going to acupuncture yesterday had anything to do with it!!

My right side is very sore, it has 16 of the eggs in it! The left has 6 right now but thats the side thats hard to see. 12 are mature and its very likely they will trigger me tonight! The mature ones rnge from 15- 21.5mm and the rest are 10-13.5mm. We only have about 2 or 3 that will potentially make it to maturity if we trigger tonight. EDITED to say: I counted wrong we have 8 that are ranging from 12- 13.5 and may potentially make it to maturity by saturday!

My e2 yesterday was 2055, so we are right on track.

I should know by 3pm what the next plan is.

Still FREAKING out!!

Sage Victoria Watson

Egg Update

Today there was 16 eggs, 7 or so mature and the rest were very close to it. My right side has 11 and my left 5. Mt left ovary is hard to visualize so the nurse said i may have more eggs then what we are seeing.

Ill get the call tonight to see what the next step is. Its looking like ill do one more night of Follistim and trigger tomorrow.

Im FREAKING out!

IVF stuff and SAGE!!!!

My sister FINALLY had the baby!!

Sage Victoria was born @ 739pm 8lbs 8.7oz 21 1/1 inches!! No epidural! She was amazing, it was the most incredible thing i have ever witnessed!! I love that sweet baby to pieces and i wish i could see her everyday!

OK now onto my fertility drama:

Ive been stimming now for 7 days. I went in on sunday (day 3) for my b/w and my e2 was skyhigh @ 390- its normally around 100-150! So they dropped my dose to 150 for sun and monday.

Today i went in for my u/s and b/w and there was multiple little follicles and 14 measurable follies, 4 were mature and the rest were VERY close to it! My e2 came back 1315- still high but OK at this point. No one at my RE's office seems too concerned but im freaking out that im stimming quickly!

I go back tomorrow for another u/s and b/w. Im guessing ill trigger on thursday, but its still up in the air.

Im feeling OK. Im tender and bloated but not anything too crazy. Im just trying to keep my mind off things, and hoping we get some very GOOD NEWS at the end of the month!!

Ready, Set, GO!!!

I had my baseline u/s yesterday and im happy to report we got the greenlight to start my stims tonight(225u of Follistim).

I had multiple little follicles (what hold eggs) on my right side and a small cyst on my left. My E2 was 27 (it had to be below 70). They stressed me out b/c of the cyst, they said i may need to wait a week if my E2 was high, but its not and we're moving ahead!

The next appt is sunday for a bloodraw to see how to adjust my drug dosage if needed.

Im getting excited!!!