17 weeks!! :)

I think ive said it before but i love saturdays!! :)

This was a good week. My spirits are def better then the 2 weeks prior. The spotting is still around but Little Babe is doing just fine. His/her heartbeat is very strong and loud. Its crazy how a few weeks back it was faint and now its bounding when i listen - so cool!!

Last sunday i felt Little Babe move for the first time! If felt like popcorn popping but now it feel like someone is tickling me very lightly from the inside. Im so excited that im feeling it so soon. Since this is my first ive read alot of ppl dont feel it until 20+ weeks. Im excited to start feeling it harder and then pete being able to feel it!

Ive been starting to relax alot more and starting to think about getting ready for the babe. We know that LB is coming at 37 weeks at the latest. So that gives us mid sept, i want everything ready by August, so 3 months. So we are going today to look at recliners b/c it may take 12 weeks for it to come in. We are also going to BRU to look at cribs and bureaus also to see how much money we are going to need and how long it will take to come in. If we have a girl we are going with black furniture and if a boy dark brown.

Ive settled on a set for a girl but a boy is alot harder. Pete wants to do a hunting cabin theme for a boy but i cant find any bedding to go with it...grrr.

Heres the girl one:http://www.babysupermall.com/main/products/lai/lai65006v.html
(damn thing wont let me paste the picture).

So we go next week to find out the gender and im super excited about that! I always thought boy but lately ive been thinking girl. For a boy we decided on Jack Eugene and girls names are still in debate but its down to Lily, Charlotte, or Violet (MN will be Mae). What do you think?

My appt on tuesdya went well. The doc was more concerned about my sunburn than anything lol. She told me the spotting will hopefull stop soon. Im going to the OB on Tuesday.. im very excited about that. Im curious to see if he'll let me go back to work. If not thats OK since i got approved for TDI and ill be paid for the rest of the pregnancy and 6-8 weeks postpartum. Im still planning on staying out til January...that'll be 9 months out of work! But its OK so ill take it! :)

16 weeks with pics!

Heres today at 16 weeks. (i really wish i knew how to cut off my head, i always look like shit! in these pictures!) Pete takes them so fast i dont have time to smile!

heres 14 weeks since i never posted it.

So today is 16 weeks!!! Im STILL spotting, which is getting annoying but at least its not getting worse. Its heavier at night which makes no sense since im sleeping and doing no activity- humm?? I hope it all ends soon, that i can go back to work and start feeling normal again. I feel like i cant enjoy this time....

I did get out of the house yesterday. Pete had a meeting in CT so i went with him and afterwards we ate out by the water. It was such a beautiful day!! It did so much for my spirits to get OUT!

Physically i feel fine. My belly is lopsided and Little babe is on the left so i have this bulge there, its weird. Im anxiously awaiting to feel movement. Sometimes i feel little zaps but they are so faint i think its just belly bubbles. I have been getting slight heartburn but nothing bad. My headaches are still pretty consistent, im going to ask tuesday if they mean anything. And, finally, my jaw is healing! YAY!

So i have my OB med appt on tuesday...ill update after that.

Growing Pains

This week hasnt been fun. My TMJ is tortourous! Dr. B gave me a perscription for Vicodin, i had to take it every 3 1/2 hours on saturday and now just at night so i relax enough to allow the jaw to relax (i clench my teeth at night, and all the pressure is on one tooth and that tooth already has nerve damage so it hurt like a mother...) I have an appt next wednesday to hopefully get some kind of mouth piece to realign my jaw so i bite evenly again. But let me tell ya, a tight jaw is not fun! I cant talk, smile, laugh, eat, open my mouth...it hasnt been fun!

Onto Little Babe. Hes doing well. Heartbeat is still nice and strong. He's getting bigger. I can feel my uterus about 2-3 inches below my belly button. I feel alot of pulling in my uterus. I can no longer suck in. I feel bigger in clothes then naked...odd. The spotting is still sticking around. It started getting darker this weekend and heavier. I had 2-3 good gushes of brown blood on sunday so Dr. B got another phone call LOL! He said its normal, it could be the pocket of blood coming out or that the placenta moved again causing some irritation. He said since the babes heartrate was good and strong theres nothing to worry about (easy for him to say). Im hoping its just from the babe getting bigger and just pushing out the blood or that the sac is reconnecting itself, thus pushing out the blood.

Its 3 more weeks until my next u/s. Im trying my hardest to remain busy until then. I wish i could get another to check the bleed but, i cant. Im trying to just take it easy and hope for the best.

15 weeks

YAY! for time going by! Its 330a and i havent slept! My tmj is really acting up, its KILLING me! Usually i can take Vicodin but now i cant, so im suffering BIG TIME! I hate even taking Tylenol but i have no choice with all this pain (but its not even touching it!). If i cant handle it by the morning im calling Dr. B and asking him to call in a perscription! I just cant take it!

So babe news! Im still spotting but, its just old bloood (knock on wood!). When we went for the u/s on wednesday there still was quite a bit that needed to come out, so i want it OUT so everything can heal and be done with! So it looks like ill be on bedrest until at least may 9th (after the u/s). I have been a little more active, i get up and make me meals now - WOW!

The one thing i hate about bedrest is that you feel EVERY ache, which i cant help but analyze. Ive been getting alot of pulling in my lower abdomen. I can feel my uterus, its about midway from pubic bone and my belly button, pretty cool :)

So i just need this pain to go away and the bleed to clear up, but most importantly Little Babe is doing wonderfully, and thats all that matters.

Oh, btw, my cervix was 3.6-4.0 on the remeasurement- that makes me feel MUCH better!!

bedrest update

Its been a week. A week of pure anxiety. Ive had 2 really bad days where all i did was want to cry/cry. Im feeling better though. Each day i pass feels like an accomplishment. I AM GOING TO HAVE THIS BABY!!!

i sat here for 2 days researching incompetent cervix and basically scared the shit out of myself. At the hospital my cervix measured 2.7 (they like it above 3), so for 6 days i had the idea in my head that i was gonna lose the baby...crazy i know, but hey give me credit, ive been through ALOT and im hormonal right now!

So anyways i called my doctor yesterday and told the nurse i was having a "crazy pregnant lady moment". She talked to my doctor and they let me come in today for an u/s to check everything out.

Little Babe was fine, measured right on target with a heartrate of 163. The placenta looked like it moved to me but the tech said it could just be the angle she took the picture. Who knows. She also said it didnt look like it was my placenta that separated but the aminionic sac..which i guess is better??? The doctor will most likely call me tomorrow with the full report.

But for now im in bed resting away.

I have to say something though. some ppl think i worry too much (which, btw, id love to see how theyd act if they have gone through what i have) well, i was watching Inn Love with tori spelling and she went to the doctor after she took a bath b/c she thought she "cooked" the baby from the warm water!!!! now come on.....

14 weeks

So glad to be here. This has definately been a rough week but we are still holding strong. I had a scare today and i couldnt find little babes heartbeat but he just moved over like 2 inches - WHEW!

Ive had no active bleeding since yesterday morning. So i called Dr. M (my high -risk doc) and she said i can restart the Lovenox tonight! Ill feel so much better being on that but scared at the same time.

I did take a picture today but i cant find the cable to upload it so ill have to add it later. I think i still look the same. Just the belly is now turning to baby and not bloat. Ill be exciting when it looks more "pregnant" not "pudgey".

No appt. this week. Just gonna be laying here holding this little babe in nice and tight!

Keep us in your prayers.

bedrest...hmph

Its amazing how fast things can change...

Yesterday morning i woke up and noticed my stomach felt really hard. I thought it was just my uterus poking out. Then i got up and GUSH! I looked down and i was soaked in red blood. I hobbled over to pete and told him i was bleeding. I sat there in the dining room with blood pouring out of me. I had the phone in my hand to call the doctor but i couldnt remember the number. Pete ran out to the car to get it. I called and they told me to get to the hospital ASAP. So pete helped undress/dress me and cleaned me up as i fumbled with the doppler. My stomach was very tight but i didnt feel any cramping. As soon as i put the doppler to my belly i heard the heartbeat - 160. THANK GOD!

We were pretty quiet on the ride to the hospital and i was quite impressed on how calm i was.

When we got there it took 45 minutes for my doctor to come in. He did a quick u/s to check on Little Babe, he was bebooping all around with a nice strong heartbeat. But he couldnt find why i was bleeding. He checked my cervix and it was closed. PHEW. He ordered a "formal" u/s to try to find the source of the bleeding and to check gestational age (make sure there wasnt a lag in growth).

They took almost 2 hours until we got that and they wouldnt feed me until that was done for some reason, I was STARVING. So we get the formal u/s and Little Babe measures 14w2d (i was 13.4) so that was really good, heartbeat was 160. So LB could have cared less i was loosing blood like it was my job.

So we found out i had a low lying placenta and a subchorionic bleed. Dr. B put me on bedrest for 2 weeks. I bleed pretty good until about 2am, now its just brown spotting, THANK GOD!

They also took me off Lovenox until i have no bleeding for 24 hours. If nothing major happens by 3pm tomorrow, im gonna call and ask to start it again since i feel very nervous being off of it. Id also like another u/s to check on the bleeding but i dont know if they are going to do that. It seemed like Dr. B will just check it again at my "big" u/s on may 9th - ARGH - long ways away! But im sure if i call and ask for one, he'll give me one.

So time is standing still and im secretly scared to death (but very hopeful). Im so thankful i have my doppler, ive been checking the heatbeat every 3 hours.

Keep us in your thoughts!

2nd Trimester!!

Today im 13w3d! So the 2T starts today. Im super psyched but still nervous. But this is a HUGE hurdle!!

Im feeling alot better. Im still having a tough time sleeping, last night i slept for 5 hours straight! I woke up at 530am and felt great! But i have to work tonight so i need to take a nap beforehand. The queasiness is basically gone but the hunger is returning. I need to eat every 3 hours. Im trying my hardest to eat well. I really dont want to gain too much weight since i had 20 pounds to lose pre-pregnancy.

I had my first OB appt today. He did a quick u/s just to see the heartbeat and make sure everything looks good. He said im in the "normal" category and it looks like im gonna be pretty "boring" - FINE BY ME!!

Little babe was pretty much just hanging out. I could see the heart beating away so that relieved me (even though i checked it right before we left LOL). LB did measure a tad on the smaller side (5 days behind) but Dr. B said he was scrunched up and the abdominal u/s isnt as accurate. Also after 12 weeks CRL isnt accurate anymore, so he told me not to worry but im secretly freaking out. I checked LBs heartbeat again and its still going strong at 160-170, thats more important.

I wasnt going to bring out my plan for 38 week induction, but he did! He said once 35 weeks hits he'll start doing internals and once i start dialating its induction time!! So hes hoping 37 weeks! WOO-HOO! But my sister didnt start dialating until she was 40 weeks so i dont know what will happen if that happens, probably c-section. He def wants me not to go past 38 weeks so we'll see!!

I also start getting growth u/s @ 24weeks and then every 4 weeks after that! No complaints there! Ill also start getting BPP at 35 weeks i think he said (maybe earlier).

So i go back 4/24 to OB med, then 5/1 for my 17 week appt. Then May 9th is the "big" us, when we will find out what we are having!